S2E1 〜 Pregnant after miscarriage: our real first 18 weeks with HG & a subchorionic hematoma

In this episode, Marcus and I are back for season two with news we've been keeping to ourselves for 18 weeks. We're expecting a baby girl, due on the 24th of January. But getting here was harder than we expected. We pick up where episode 11 left off, talking through the decision to try *again after the miscarriage*, what trying to conceive after loss actually looked like for us, and the emotional reality of that first positive test. Then around week five, the nausea arrived. And it was nothing like morning sickness. Hyperemesis Gravidarum (HG) kept me confined to a dark bedroom for weeks, unable to keep food or water down, losing four kilos. Marcus was in the US for the World Cup during the worst of it. Our neighbors came over every morning. I ended up in hospital in Ibiza for dehydration, and getting the right medication in Spain turned into a whole separate battle. Then, at 14 weeks, the pregnancy complications kept coming. I started bleeding. *A subchorionic hematoma*, a large blood clot in the uterus wall, four centimetres, found during a scan. It led to multiple hospital visits, including a 2am emergency in Edinburgh during what was supposed to be a holiday away. We talk honestly about what it was like to sit with that level of fear while already completely depleted. We talk about: the decision to try again after miscarriage and what that actually looked like for us trying to conceive after loss without the pressure of tracking getting pregnant on the first try again and the emotional weight of that first positive test Hyperemesis Gravidarum (HG): what it actually is and why it's nothing like morning sickness navigating hospital visits and medication battles in Spain while severely dehydrated fighting to get the right HG prescription when doctors wouldn't prescribe it subchorionic hematoma: what it is and how we navigated the fear of it four weeks of daily bleeding and learning to sit with uncertainty pregnancy complications and chronic illness / CRPS (more in the next episode) This episode is for anyone who's been through pregnancy loss and is wondering what comes after, or anyone in the thick of a complicated first trimester who needs to feel less alone in it. Chapters 00:00 Introduction and big news 03:30 The decision to try again after loss 08:00 Trying again without the pressure of tracking 12:00 The first positive test and how this pregnancy felt different 17:47 Hyperemesis Gravidarum begins (week 5) 21:39 Marcus in the US and surviving on neighbours' help 24:00 Hospital in Ibiza: dehydration and the medication battle 28:47 Scotland and finally getting the right HG medication 32:13 Week 14: the bleeding starts 35:51 Subchorionic hematoma: what it is and what happened 47:49 The emotional weight of a complicated pregnancy 50:10 The scan that brought us peace 53:34 Grieving the pregnancy you imagined If this resonates, I'd love for you to leave a review, share it with someone who needs it, or send me a DM on Instagram.