Who I Used to Be (ft. Blake R)

Lyrics: Lookin' in the mirror, I don't recognize the face Tears track down the makeup, leaving nothing but a trace Of a girl who used to smile, of a girl who had a spark Now I'm sittin' in my bedroom, just staring at the dark I let a broken promise take the driver's seat Let a toxic kind of love knock me right off my feet I traded in my armor for a fragile kind of trust Now I'm sweeping up the pieces, turning diamonds into dust But hold up, take a breath, let me talk to my reflection I need a little grace, need a brand new direction I forgot the way I fought, I forgot the way I stand Used to hold the whole world right inside the palm of my hand So wipe the tears, look up, and try to see The girl behind the shadows of this misery You lost your way, you lost your light, you gave away the key But remember that you loved who you used to be Yeah, remember that you loved who you used to be I was a force of nature, untamed and so alive Didn't need another person just to help me to survive My heart was made of gold, my mind was sharp as glass I never let a disrespect or a boundary ever pass But then the slow fade started, the compromises came Shrinking down my spirit just to keep her in the frame I watered down my fire so she wouldn't feel the heat Now I'm shivering alone, feeling nothing but defeat No more. I'm stepping out the ashes of this pain I'm washing off the heartbreak in the middle of the rain I'm calling back the power that I left upon the shelf This is an apology from me, back to myself So wipe the tears, look up, and try to see The girl behind the shadows of this misery You lost your way, you lost your light, you gave away the key But remember that you loved who you used to be Yeah, remember that you loved who you used to be They say that time is healing, but the work is up to me To stitch together all the parts of my identity I'm not a victim to a girl who couldn't treat me right I'm the author of the story, I'm the ruler of the night Every scar is just a lesson, every tear is just a toll Paid on the highway to rebuild a shattered soul I'm looking at my hands, they're steady and they're strong I'm writing out the rhythm to my own survival song So welcome back. It's been a minute since we spoke The heart is bruised a little, but the spirit never broke I'm picking up the crown, putting it back on my head Leaving all the sorrow and the memories in the bed I'm stronger than the hurt, I'm fiercer than the grief Finding my own closure, stepping into my relief I'm back, and I'm exactly who I'm meant to be 'Cause I remembered that I loved who I used to be Yeah. I loved who I used to be