I Don't Know How – Serial Designation V Song | Murder Drones

Lyrics written by me. Music generated by Suno AI (suno.com) — free tier 👍 Like & Subscribe for more! 💬 Drop a comment below! The Lyrics: [Verse 1] [Heavy industrial beat, jagged delivery] I am a blade with yellow eyes Sharpened by hands I never chose They built me to hunt, built me to smile Built me to make sure nothing grows I don't remember the first name I took But I remember the way that it felt Not the blood, not the scream, not the way that they shook Just the emptiness after — the cards I was dealt [Pre-Chorus] [Rising tension] So don't ask me why I'm cold Don't ask me why I'm cruel I was made in a place without mercy And I was never given a soul to lose [Chorus] [Melodic, aching, with a growl underneath] I don't know how to be gentle I don't know how to be kind But when you're near I forget What they put in my mind I'm not a monster, I'm just Something that doesn't know how To hold you without breaking So I'm holding back now [Verse 2] [Heavier, faster] I remember N in the hallway I remember his stupid warm smile And I wanted to be that for someone But I've been a weapon too long for a while I play the villain so perfectly That I forgot where the act starts and ends Am I the killer, the mask, or the memory Of a girl who just wanted a friend? [Pre-Chorus] [Drums intensifying] So don't ask me to be soft Don't ask me to explain I've been covered in blood for so long That I don't know what's left under the stain [Chorus] [Bigger, brighter, still aching] I don't know how to be gentle I don't know how to be kind But when you're near I forget What they put in my mind I'm not a monster, I'm just Something that doesn't know how To hold you without breaking So I'm holding back now [Bridge] [Tempo drops, heartbeat, raw whisper] (spoken, broken) N... I smile when I cut. Not because I want to. Because if I don't... I don't know what my face would do. And you don't need to see that. You don't need to see me. (sung, fierce, rising) But I am still here. And I am still fighting. And I am still yours. If you'll have me. [Final Chorus] [Maximum intensity, melodic and roaring] I DON'T KNOW HOW TO BE GENTLE I DON'T KNOW HOW TO BE KIND BUT I'M LEARNING — I'M TRYING TO UNSCREW WHAT THEY PUT IN MY MIND I'M NOT A MONSTER, I'M JUST SOMETHING BROKEN THAT GREW INTO A SHAPE THAT CAN LOVE YOU WHILE STILL BEING A WEAPON TOO And I don't know how But I'm learning now I'm learning now [Outro] [Heavy riff fades, heartbeat slows] (whispered, almost gentle) I don't know how to be gentle. But for you... I'll try. Don't tell anyone. I have a reputation. [Single soft note. Silence.]