According to God ~ Beautiful Eulogy feat. Joseph (lyrics, About section)

Album: Instruments of Mercy Track #11. According to God feat Joseph Artist(s): Beautiful Eulogy Release Date: 10-29-13 Get it here: http://www.humblebeast.com/downloads/... Lyrics: Braille: "I'm a believer. Sometimes I believe the lies of the deceiver. The lies from seeds, when they sprout they lead to seasons of spiritual amnesia. Deep seated self-doubt, it creeps in my conscience, feeds my fear. It keeps me up at night, conquered by critical thoughts my mind is prone to conjure. What it wants is watching my failures, Play back. Play back on repeat. I try to change the chain of events, but can't rewind or find the "delete" button to push... I'm on the edge. It's like the world is about to end. I'm in the middle of Armageddon with no arms, no weapons, no armor for protection. It's the testing of my faith... and I know the answer, but instead I'm just guessing. Like I forgot that God was my Father, and I was set apart for His own possession. His Word is my armor and my protection against the enemy's deception but still I question, 'How can I receive such an incredible blessing when I feel like I'm less than...' Because I'm going through this, am I a second-rate Christian? I know that's a lie. So I won't listen. Through Christ I'm forgiven. I'm being formed into His image. According to God... I was called from darkness into His marvelous light. He is near to the brokenhearted. Faithful to finish what He started. "Who do you think you are? Who do you think you are?... Who do you think you are?... Who do you think you are?..." Odd Thomas: As a child I struggled to identify most of my misplaced anger and rage Dealing with the whole of emotional consequences based on the way I was raised Appealing for affection and affirmation, adjusting performance to get attention and gain Some sort of acceptance but found I was always rejected and pushed away Deep scars, feelings of not belonging cause tall emotional walls And any attempt to recover from the loss of my confidence was incredibly small The residual effects of abandonment had me observing my character flaws And viewing them all as insufficiently capable of relating or growing with God I believed these lies to be true for me, my experience was the proof for me. Up 'til the point where I could sense Christ's relentless love and complete pursuit of me. And spoke to me offering me hope and life through His Word showing me His beauty. Changing my perception and giving me perspective of the way that God truly viewed me A man who was prized and pardoned, and chosen before the world's foundation, His own possession, His royal priesthood, I'm part of His holy nation I'm His friend, I'm valued, I'm completely cared for, enough for Christ to purchase. According to God, I'm an adopted Child with intimate access created with purpose."