Pretending ( i ) don't love you

lirik [pretending (i) don't love you] PRETENDING I DON'T LOVE YOU [Intro] I knew from the start I wasn't the one So why does my heart keep choosing you? Even when the truth is right in front of me I'm still hoping you'll look at me too [Verse 1] It started with a simple hello Never thought I'd fall this hard, this slow Now I'm waiting for your name to light my screen Finding happiness in things you don't even mean I knew there was somebody on your mind I knew your heart wasn't looking for mine But foolishly, I kept trying anyway Hoping you'd see me differently someday I tried to be the reason you would smile Stayed beside you, even for a little while I kept searching for a way to make you see There's someone here who wants you desperately [Pre-Chorus] I thought if I stayed, you'd change your mind Maybe you'd see what was here all this time I thought if I meant enough to you One day you'd choose me, too But I was running endlessly Toward a heart that never turned to me [Chorus] I was the only one getting excited Turning little moments into something sacred You were just being yourself, nothing more While I was dreaming of what we could be for I tried so hard to catch your attention Forgot you never asked for my affection And when I hoped you'd finally choose me Your heart belonged to someone else completely So tell me, what am I supposed to do? When every hope I had leads back to you You never promised me a love that was true So why does it hurt like I'm losing you? [Verse 2] I got tired of guessing how you felt Tired of hiding all the jealousy I held So I asked you what we really were Why I kept hoping for something that never occurred You answered with a truth I couldn't bear There's someone special, someone you hold dear You told me that your bond was something more And suddenly, my dreams fell to the floor I stood there with a thousand words inside Trying my hardest not to break down and cry What was I fighting for all this time? When I was never the one on your mind? [Pre-Chorus 2] I can't blame you for the way you feel You have the right to love what's real But let me ask you just one thing Why is accepting this so hard for me? [Chorus] I was the only one getting excited Turning little moments into something sacred You were just being yourself, nothing more While I was dreaming of what we could be for I tried so hard to catch your attention Forgot you never asked for my affection And when I hoped you'd finally choose me Your heart belonged to someone else completely So tell me, what am I supposed to do? When every hope I had leads back to you You never promised me a love that was true So why does it hurt like I'm losing you? [Bridge] So I tried to leave your world behind Erase your name from the corners of my mind Stopped waiting for your messages at night Told myself I'd be alright I told the world that I was doing fine Told you that I'd left it all behind I let them believe that I was finally free That you no longer meant the world to me But why, when we start talking again Does my heart forget the hurt I've been in? Why can one hello undo it all? Why do I still answer when you call? I come back, again and again Knowing how this story's going to end I pretend that I don't love you anymore While secretly wishing you were mine once more [Final Chorus] I'm still the only one getting excited Though now I keep my feelings locked inside it I laugh like nothing has ever changed While loving you still hurts the same I learned to greet you like an ordinary friend Hide all the dreams I know will never mend You don't know every time I look at you There's a heart still fighting to get over you And if one day you ask me why I no longer show what's hidden inside I'll tell you that those feelings are gone Even though I've loved you all along [Outro ] I tried so hard to be the one you'd choose I gave my heart with everything to lose Now I'm just a friend who seems okay Still loving you in ways I cannot say Still wishing things had gone another way I've tried to forget you... God, I've really tried So why... Does my heart still run to you?