❝Ironic, Really.❞ | ❛TIGHTROPE❜ - The Greatest Showman - ToraFuku ‪@_m0th_.‬

Happy birthday ‪@_m0th_.‬ I hope you have a good dayy . . . First note: I accidentally skipped like an entire verse/chorus (I can't remember now lol) and I have no idea how I did that but since I already finished writing and editing and the story is complete, I can't really go back and change it... Second note: capcut is working again!! Thank you guys for the recommendations, I have to be completely honest I hate them all.. I hate change and I'm so used to capcut so I just didn't work on anything and hoped it would fix itself.. AND IT DID! None of the apps worked on my current phone anyway so I'm glad something is going right 😰😰 . Third note: This is now me ranting (maybe venting) so skip if you don't want to read this. I've made it clear before I THINK that I suffer from clinical depression. At this rate I will never get better and I will never go a day being truly happy without experiencing some level of low mood. In some way I've accepted this, like I know I'll always be depressed and I know it'll never go away no matter how hard I try. I've done therapy, I'm on the waiting list for camhs, but nothing is working and I'm at my last resort, taking medication. Except I called my local gp and they said I was too young to take pills. I'm 16. I'm going to college next year. Next year I can drive and yet I'm too young to take pills to help make my depression a little bit easier to cope with? I don't understand really. I know everything about antidepressants, I'm aware of the effects, my dad takes them. Of course this made me feel worse because now it feels like I'll never be happy and during one of the most stressful years of my life as well. So I haven't been very good at doing things, I've lost motivation in everything, I can't write, I can't draw, I can't even revise and my mocks are in 6 weeks. I genuinely don't know what to do anymore, so I'm just going to take everything slowly step by step. Revision is most important, if I don't do well in my mocks than everything will feel worse, I'm doing Inktober so drawing is important as well because there's only a few days left and THEN making videos is important - and only if i feel like it. I'm sorry it's taking me a while to upload, but I hope you can understand my situation. My personal life is okay by the way, I'm safe and have a great relationship with my family before anyone gets any worrisome ideas.... i just don't have a good relationship with myself, if that makes sense 😭🙏 . #anime #haikyuutextstory #lyricprank #haikyuutexts #haikyuu #haikyuutextingstory #haikyutext #shoheifukunaga #fukunagashohei #taketorayamamoto #yamamototaketora #yamafuku