AfterVoid — Save Me From Myself

I hear You breathing in the static Somewhere underneath my skin Like a parasite or a prophet I don’t know which voice You’re in Every mirror shows a stranger With my face but hollow eyes I’ve been feeding off the anger Just to feel something alive If You’re real, then why’s it violent? Why’s it tearing through my chest? Every time I try to fight it I just feel You dig in deeper Save me from myself Or just watch me decay Every part of me is begging While the rest wants to stay If You’re inside my head Then don’t look away Either rip me apart Or take the pain away I tried to cut You out in pieces Bite the hand inside my mind But You keep crawling through the fractures Like You like what You find There’s a beauty in the damage There’s a comfort in the ache Like I need this just to function Like I’m yours to desecrate Are You love or something twisted? Something I was never meant to hold? Every time I say I hate this I still beg for You in the cold Save me from myself Or just let me break I’ve been dancing with the shadow Every step that I take If You’re buried in me Then don’t hesitate Either silence the noise Or consume what You made You don’t speak — You just stay In the rot, in the veins In the space where I pray But nothing has a name I let You in… Or maybe You never left If this is what You want from me Then take it all, take everything I’m done pretending I’m in control You’ve got Your teeth in my soul Teeth in my soul Teeth in my soul Save me from myself Or don’t save me at all If I’m already Yours Then just finish the call I’m collapsing inside Every time that I fall If You’re the voice in the dark Then why won’t You talk? Still You linger… Still You stay… Like a ghost I never chased away And I don’t know if You’re healing… Or the reason I’m this way