Waver - What did i expect

This is my most personal and biggest project thus far i've been working on. This song is a recollection of a lot of my thoughts and my thought process during one of my lowest periods in my life and also the struggle of dealing with chronic depression amongst other issues. I am in a much better mental state today but i still have my struggles and issues that i am fighting. So to everyone out there thats struggling, keep fighting and dont give up! I've been working on this track for some time now so im very glad to be finally sharing it with you all, hope you all enjoy. Sub and like for more music! What did i expect by: Waver (me) Produced by: Waver Lyrics written by: Waver Sung by: an AI (cant sing and to broke to pay for a singer) Lyrics: I can't help that I'm broken It all ends bad because i keep putting my trust in the wrong person So i just lay in bed and stare up at the roof dreaming I had so much more planned yet here i sit with shaky hands Wished you were here but i disregard the blood I bleed I remember all the words you said But i guess they never mattered the same way they did to me I sit alone trying to piece myself back together Take medicine my head turns black Three words i won't hear back Distractions and pills yet i cant relax Don't care anymore if shit goes bad (x2) Knife in back while i ruined myself So running away cuz if i get to close i’ll end up getting hurt I don't know what to feel so i like feeling numb Don't know if I'm okay and don't wanna fall apart again So i keep self isolating myself to give my head a rest I try to guard and numb myself but what did i expect Take medicine my head turns black Three words i won't hear back Distractions and pills yet i cant relax Don't care anymore if shit goes bad (x2) Can't trust can't function cuz once i was your everything To scared to leave my room or trust because people can be anything Built myself back yet fell apart again cuz i don't respect or love myself I can't keep sitting and taking meds but again what did i expect Yea what did i expect