I really wanted to ask my husband why he infected me with HIV but he died before he could answer me

"When my husband was admitted in hospital in a very critical condition, the doctors called me. They told me that they wanted to test me for HIV. This was more than 20 years ago when having HIV meant death! I tested positive. I knew i would die and be buried in a nylon bag. But before I faced my death, I really wanted to ask my husband why he infected me with HIV... he died before he could answer me. More than 20 years now, am still alive..living positively. Hear my story."