Alex Amor - Inside (Official Video)

My Debut Album, Heavenly Bodies, Out Now ⏾ SOCIALS:   / iamalexamor     / iamalexamor   LYRICS: I change who I am Every goddamn year But I’ll live and die by the same old fears Thought time would heal But it comes with complications My twenties showed me independence Built a barricade for my own protection The archer aims its arrowOn my necklace I can’t believe we’re five years deep Only now I can finally Admit that when you goI can’t digest it I need the air Like I need you there Here with me And I don’t care Brick by brick, I’m losing my defences I feel it insideI feel it inside Gotta keep you alive Now I feel it inside I feel it inside I feel it inside I feel it inside They say life makes sense when you hit 27 All I think about is going back to eleven When friends aren’t gonna overdose I could point at the sky Still call it heaven Now I wonder why it was them, not me I keep picturing all their families Singing by the church pews With tears soaking through their shoes ’Cause I’ve lost a friend He was like a brother Every now and thenI still speak to his mother Devastated, and I can take it Cos I’m terrified that if you get too close I could lose you too And then I’d know The world is worthless without you in it I feel it inside I feel it inside Gotta keep you alive Now I feel it inside I feel it inside I feel it inside I feel it inside Sometimes I wanna scream At the top of my lungs For the moments i missed But they’ve been and they’ve gone A few days i spoke to my mum About my Grandma’s life Where it all begun She was cold from the trauma Cut off from the sun To survive she dyed her dark hair blonde But we look alike In it’s our blood Saw her every sunday Till I was seven Faded memories Think I repressed them Her life was heavy Soon it was time When the cancer returned She wasn’t scared to die Stopped the treatment She couldn’t go through it twice I don’t know why I feel her inside I feel her inside Gotta keep her alive Now I feel her inside I feel her inside I feel her inside I feel her inside