Still living in my Heart

Lyrics: [Verse 1] Baby, how I wish I could call you that again, This wish keeps me awake, been like this for weeks on end. We said we'd stay together, we'd be happy till the end, You always said forever, now you say it's over instead. Never loved somebody like I loved you, Always showed you that my heart belonged to you. Almost three years, that's a long time to spend, All those nights together, wish they'd never had to end. I gave you my heart, put my whole life in your hands, You were all I ever wanted, you were part of all my plans. Then you tore it into pieces, left me broken on the floor, Hurt me deeper than I thought a heart could hurt before. And if we're never gonna find our way back home, Then sadness and this loneliness are all I've ever known. No more laughter, no more warmth, just this pain I can't deny, I miss the way we used to be, and I don't know how to say goodbye. [Chorus] And once again I'm all alone, You're the only one inside my mind, my home. It's eating me alive, I need the love we had, I act like I don't care, but inside I'm breaking bad. I tell the world that I don't give a fuck about you, But the pain inside is something they don't see me going through. This fight for us is one-sided, damn, it's tearing me apart, I'm still in love with you, you're still living in my heart. [Verse 2] Why am I sent back to this dream every night? Is it longing, is it hope, or have I lost my mind? My emotions keep on spinning, one day high, the next day low, This ain't some bullshit, girl, this love is real, you know. I forgave you when you cheated, though it tore my heart in two, 'Cause nobody's perfect, I know I've made mistakes too. I regretted every wrong turn, everyone could see, I was trying to be the person that you needed me to be. Then you ended everything like it meant nothing at all, Turned so cold and arrogant, just watched me as I'd fall. Never thought you'd get with my own friend behind my back, While I was trying to find the pieces of the life we used to have. You started throwing insults like you wanted me erased, Every word another scar, every memory misplaced. I kept asking where we went wrong, what was left to save, While the love I tried to hold on to was slowly fading away. [Chorus] And once again I'm all alone, You're the only one inside my mind, my home. It's eating me alive, I need the love we had, I act like I don't care, but inside I'm breaking bad. I tell the world that I don't give a fuck about you, But the pain inside is something they don't see me going through. This fight for us is one-sided, damn, it's tearing me apart, I'm still in love with you, you're still living in my heart. [Verse 3] I've changed my ways, I see the things I did wrong, But it feels like I've been banished from your heart for so long. Tell me, how am I supposed to prove that I have changed? I'm running in circles, going nowhere, feeling chained. I really thought that I had finally found the one, Now I'm staring at the ashes of the love that came undone. And what's left? You're gone, maybe forever out of reach, And my fears stay right beside me, there's no peace within my sleep. I don't know if you can understand the damage that you do, How the weight of all this heartbreak keeps on pulling me right through. I've got nothing left to give, I'm exhausted to the core, Feel like I am locked inside a cell behind a door. Like a prisoner of memories, asking what I did, Why you hate me so damn much, why our love became like this. Close my eyes, you're gone again, Open them, the truth remains. And suddenly I realize, We were once each other's paradise. Now I'm drowning in the memories, buried deep beneath the pain, All I want is somewhere far away from yesterday. [Outro] Back to the place where we were still together, When we thought our love would last forever. When we saw a future shining in our eyes, Before we lost it all to all those silent goodbyes. I stare at your picture as the memories return, Still searching for a reason, still too broken to move on. And somewhere in the silence, where the echoes never end, I'm still looking for the person I once called my best friend. ---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Add me on Instagram:   / koenichkrank