RE:Alter - “In Retrospect” (Feat. Mason Thorne)

Lyrics: I used to think I’d hate you If I ever made it out Like distance would make everything A little easier to figure out You were angry at the wrong things You were scared of being seen So you learned to hurt somebody Before they got the chance to leave You could turn an apology Into another way to fight And I spent years convincing myself You just didn’t know what’s right Maybe you were young Maybe you were hurt Maybe nobody showed you How much damage words could do I can find a hundred reasons For everything you put them through But reasons aren’t excuses And I know that now… In retrospect I should’ve known better Should’ve held my tongue Should’ve held us together I can blame who I was On the things I went through But in retrospect I was hurting too And that doesn’t make it right It just makes it easier to explain In retrospect I would’ve done everything differently At least that’s what I say I remember every doorway Every “fine” that meant goodbye Every time I made you comfort me For something I did that night I remember saying “trust me” When I’d given you no reason Then acting like your doubt Was somehow your betrayal And God, I had an answer For every tear and every bruise Not the kind you leave on skin The kind that changes how they look at you Maybe I was young Maybe I was hurt Maybe I was terrified Of finding out what I was worth But somewhere underneath it There’s a truth I can’t unlearn I keep saying I didn’t know better I think I did. In retrospect I fucking knew better I knew when to stop I just couldn’t stay better I can blame who I was On the things I went through But everybody hurts Not everybody hurts you And that doesn’t mean I’m evil It doesn’t mean that I’ve been saved In retrospect I knew exactly when you’d break I just thought you’d stay So what would I say If I could sit across from me? Would I tell him that I forgive him? Would he even believe me? Would I tell him he’ll get better? That one day he’ll understand? Or would I look him in the eyes And ask him why he never— STOPPED WHEN HE KNEW HE FUCKING COULD? DON’T TELL ME YOU WERE YOUNG DON’T TELL ME YOU WERE SCARED DON’T TELL ME NOBODY TAUGHT YOU WHEN YOU KNEW THAT THEY WERE HURT DON’T TELL ME YOU’RE A DIFFERENT MAN JUST BECAUSE YOU HATE HIS NAME IF YOU’RE REALLY NOT HIM ANYMORE THEN PROVE IT WHEN YOU FEEL THE SAME In retrospect I should’ve known better But knowing what I know now Doesn’t change what I remember I can hate who I was I can understand him too I can spend my whole life wishing He had chosen what I’d choose But I still feel him in my anger Still hear him when I’m afraid And being better than I was Doesn’t mean I’ve gotten far enough away So in retrospect I won’t say I didn’t know I knew. I just wasn’t ready— TO BE BETTER YET If I met who I was now I don’t know if I’d forgive him But I know him. And I think that’s how I stop becoming him again. #alternativerock #hardrock #emotional