a life uncertain

Track 1 of my album "life of paranoia" Lyrics: Verse 1 It's 8pm and I'm wondering if my mind’s delayed I wonder if in 2 hours, will I still be the same My head’s been wrapping lately around poles in my own brain I'm uncertain of my future, I just wanna be okay Pre-Chorus And lately i wonder; where could it all go wrong I have so much to live for, and so much to love My life isn't perfect, that isn't what I want I just want things consistent, consistently loved Chorus Is it so much to ask for: for things to be okay It feels like I'm paranoid in every hour, every day Is it so much to ask for: for it in my control Feels like every fucking week I lose a part of my soul And sometimes when I'm laughing, I stop and realize That this joy I feel in my heart won't transcend through my life And sometimes when I'm crying, I look with real eyes And I realize that this life I only live until light Bridge It's 8am and I've finalized that my mind is fine Need to give myself a break and tell myself it's alright No need to look far to the future if the view is unclear Must enjoy what is in my hands before it disappears Chorus Is it so much to ask for: for things to be okay It feels like I'm paranoid in every hour, every day Is it so much to ask for: for it in my control Feels like every fucking week I lose a part of my soul And sometimes when I'm laughing, I stop and realize That this joy I feel in my heart won't transcend through my life And sometimes when I'm crying, I look with real eyes And I realize that this life I only live until light