Sorry to myself

⚖️ Droits & utilisation © Bastian – Tous droits réservés Paroles : Création original (moi) Musique : générée avec Suno (IA) Toute reproduction ou diffusion sans autorisation est interdite. 🧭 À propos L’IA est utilisée comme un outil de création, au service d’une écriture et d’une intention humaine. Parole : [Intro] Funny, isn’t it? You can be surrounded by people And still feel like nobody knows you. I spent so long being there for everyone… I forgot I was someone, too. [Verse 1] I was the shoulder when somebody broke down, The one who stayed when everybody else left town. I gave my time, gave my heart, gave a piece of my soul, Kept on fixing everybody while I wasn’t whole. And my family watched me slowly fade away, Saw the light leave my eyes, never asked me to stay. Did they think I was fine? Did they think I’d be alright? I was losing myself in the middle of their lives. I kept smiling through the silence, kept the truth behind my teeth, Had a thousand things to say, but no one asking me. And it’s funny how they notice when you finally disappear, But nobody hears the silence when you’re screaming without tears. [Pre-Chorus] Where were you when I needed someone? Where were you when I came undone? I was there for every single one of you… So tell me, who was there for me? [Chorus] I’m sorry, I’m sorry to myself, For putting everybody’s pain above my health. I gave them everything, kept nothing on the shelf, Spent my whole damn life forgetting someone else. I’m sorry for the nights I cried alone, For every time I called a broken place my home. I kept on giving till there was nothing left… I’m sorry, I’m sorry to myself. [Verse 2] I stopped letting people in, I had my reasons, Too many broken promises, too many changing seasons. Every time I trusted, I was left to pick the pieces, So I built a wall around my heart and called it healing. No friends to call, no love to hold, Just a younger version of me growing bitter and cold. I didn’t see a future, couldn’t picture where I’d be, Just another empty day, another stranger looking back at me. And don’t you dare tell me I should’ve tried harder, I was carrying a weight that kept getting heavier. I was fighting battles no one bothered to see, While everybody had a reason they were too busy for me. I don’t hate the world, but I hate what it took, All the years I lost trying to fit in their books. I kept asking what was wrong with me… When the real question was: Why was I the last one I’d ever choose to see? [Chorus] I’m sorry, I’m sorry to myself, For putting everybody’s pain above my health. I gave them everything, kept nothing on the shelf, Spent my whole damn life forgetting someone else. I’m sorry for the nights I cried alone, For every time I called a broken place my home. I kept on giving till there was nothing left… I’m sorry, I’m sorry to myself. [Bridge] But you know what? I can’t go back. I can’t give you all those years, Can’t erase those nights or take away those tears. I can’t make them understand What they never tried to see. But I can stop pretending That you didn’t matter to me. You deserved to be heard. You deserved to be loved. You deserved so much more Than just being strong enough. And I’m sorry… I’m so fucking sorry. [Final Verse] I’m sorry I kept waiting for somebody to care, For a hand to reach for mine, for somebody to be there. I’m sorry I believed that being needed meant being loved, That I had to earn my place by giving more than enough. You were never just a shadow standing in the background, Never just a broken heart that nobody could hear out. You were worth it all before you gave a single thing, You were worthy of the love you were so desperate to bring. So I won’t promise that tomorrow won’t be hard, Won’t pretend that I can heal every scar. But I won’t abandon you to keep somebody else… I spent too long forgetting you. I’m choosing you now. [Final Chorus] I’m sorry, I’m sorry to myself, For putting everybody’s pain above my health. I can’t change the past, can’t rewrite every page, But I won’t let you disappear another day. I’m sorry for the times you stood alone, For making you believe you had to face it on your own. You gave them everything, now it’s time to give yourself… The love you always gave to someone else. I’m sorry… I’m sorry to myself. [outro] To the kid who thought nobody cared… I’m sorry. You were never hard to love. You were just tired of loving everyone Who never thought to ask If you were okay. I’m here now. I’m not leaving you again.