After Void - No pulse

Lyrics: I’ve been numb for days, I think I forgot What it feels like to feel anything at all Every word tastes like rust in my mouth Every thought just drags me down I keep staring at the ceiling cracks Like they’re spelling out what I lack Something holy I pushed away Now it won’t leave me alone in the grave I made If You’re still there in the silence Why do I feel so far gone? I’m a body without a pulse Still somehow holding on Dead inside, but I’m still breathing Something’s missing, something’s screaming If there’s a way out of this hell I built Then pull me under, make me feel it Dead inside, don’t let me stay In the dark I’ve learned to crave If You can hear me through the noise Then don’t let me fade away Every night feels like déjà vu Same collapse, same point of view I tried drowning what I can’t escape But it learned how to imitate There’s a weight like a hand on my chest Not enough to kill, just enough to press Like You’re there but You won’t intervene Watching me choke on the in-between Are You waiting for me to break? Or just watching me decay? If I’m already too far gone Why do I still hear Your name? Dead inside, but I’m still breathing Something’s missing, something’s screaming If there’s a way out of this hell I built Then pull me under, make me feel it Dead inside, don’t let me stay In the dark I’ve learned to crave If You can hear me through the noise Then don’t let me fade away I wore the emptiness like skin Let it sink deeper in Called it peace, called it control But it’s eating through my soul Can You still reach me… …or did I go too far to be found?! If I’m lost then drag me out I don’t care what it takes now Break the bones, reshape the doubt I don’t wanna live like this I don’t wanna die like this Dead inside, but I’m still screaming There’s a part of me still believing If there’s a light beyond this state Then tear me open, don’t hesitate Dead inside, I need escape From the mess that I became If You’re real beyond my fear Then why am I still here? No pulse… no peace… Just something calling underneath And I don’t know if it’s the end… Or something trying to bring me back again