Spiral

!Lyrics! [Verse 1] I hear that sound and my heart starts racing, Every little noise has my mind debating. Is she outside? Is she coming through? What am I supposed to say or do? She has her own key, so why knock at my door? Why make me feel like I'm trapped anymore? I didn't let her in, I just needed my space, Now I'm terrified I'm gonna have to leave this place. [Pre-Chorus] And my thoughts keep running circles, Faster than I can breathe, Every worst-case scenario Is chasing after me. [Chorus] I'm spiraling, spiraling, Can't make the panic stop. What if she makes me leave here? What if everything gets lost? Back to Michigan, back to somewhere I don't wanna be again, I'm holding onto everything With shaking hands. Why can't she just use her key And leave me out of it? Why do I have to see her face When I don't wanna deal with this? I'm spiraling, spiraling, My head won't let me rest, I'm scared she's gonna take my life And turn it upside down again. [Verse 2] I know she's got a key already, So why does this feel so heavy? If she can walk right through that door, Why does she have to make me feel like I'm the problem once more? I don't want another argument, I don't want another fight, I don't want to spend another night Wondering if I'll be told goodbye. One little moment turns into A thousand things inside my head, And every thought gets louder Until I can't hear myself instead. [Pre-Chorus] My chest is getting tighter, My hands won't stay still, I keep imagining the worst Even when I don't know if it will. [Chorus] I'm spiraling, spiraling, Can't make the panic stop. What if she makes me leave here? What if everything gets lost? Back to Michigan, back to somewhere I don't wanna be again, I'm holding onto everything With shaking hands. Why can't she just use her key And leave me out of it? Why do I have to see her face When I don't wanna deal with this? I'm spiraling, spiraling, My head won't let me rest, I'm scared she's gonna take my life And turn it upside down again. [Bridge] I don't wanna run, I don't wanna hide, I just want one place Where I can feel alright. Don't tell me I'm leaving, Don't take this away, Don't make me feel like I have no say. I'm angry, I'm frightened, I'm tired of the fear, I just want some peace When I'm living here. [Breakdown] She's got the key. She's got the key. So why is this happening to me? I've got nowhere to put All this fear in my head. I keep replaying every word That hasn't even been said. [Final Chorus] I'm spiraling, spiraling, Somebody make it stop. I don't wanna lose my home, I don't wanna lose my spot. Back to Michigan, back to a life That I don't wanna choose, I'm terrified of losing Everything I've got to lose. Why can't she just use her key And leave me out of it? Why do I have to look at her When I don't wanna deal with this? I'm spiraling, spiraling, But I'm still standing here, Trying to breathe through all this panic, Trying not to disappear. [Outro] Maybe tomorrow I'll feel safer, Maybe this won't happen like I fear. But tonight my mind keeps spinning, And I'm just trying to stay here. Spiraling... Spiraling... Please don’t make me leave Just let me breathe