The Ledger I Keep | Renee Graves Song | The Coffin of Andy and Leyley (TCOAAL)

"I fed you. I clothed you. I kept the lights on." The Ledger I Keep is a fan song about Renee Graves, the mother who kept score instead of keeping close, told through her own ledger of debts, stamps and silence. Content warning: themes of child neglect and family abuse. Contains spoilers for The Coffin of Andy and Leyley. CREDITS Song: Suno V6 Lyrics: Zandran Video motion: MiniMax H3 (selected clips) and Zandran Editing, typography and direction: Zandran Game artwork: The Coffin of Andy and Leyley, by Nemlei / Kit9 Studio Additional Renee illustrations: Zandran (made with Krea 2 and Anima) CHAPTERS 0:00 Disclaimer 0:15 Intro 0:29 Verse 1 0:47 Pre-Chorus 0:58 Chorus 1:21 Verse 2 1:39 Pre-Chorus 1:50 Chorus 2:12 Bridge 2:45 Final Chorus 3:00 Outro LYRICS [Verse 1] I was fifteen when the summer went still, a doctor said a word, and the word was you. Douglas bought a ring at the pharmacy till and I signed my whole name away in blue. Nobody asked the girl what she planned. They put something crying in her hand. [Pre-Chorus] Say it flat. Say it fast. Say it mean. Renee. Not the one in the magazine. I don't want the version with the little curl. I was never gonna be that kind of girl. [Chorus] I fed you. I clothed you. I kept the lights on. That's the whole of the debt, and the debt is gone. Don't look for love in the ledger I keep, three little words that I never speak. Say them plain, for the family's sake: Accident. Embarrassment. Mistake. [Verse 2] I tell my mother you're doing so well: honors, a scholarship, a boy who behaves. Then the line goes dead and there's nothing to sell but a kid in a doorway and the noise she makes. Hold the leash, Andrew. Keep her in line. Whatever she turns into, it isn't mine. [Pre-Chorus] Say it flat. Say it fast. Say it mean. Renee. Not the one in the magazine. I don't want the version with the little curl. I was never gonna be that kind of girl. [Chorus] I fed you. I clothed you. I kept the lights on. That's the whole of the debt, and the debt is gone. Don't look for love in the ledger I keep, three little words that I never speak. Say them plain, for the family's sake: Accident. Embarrassment. Mistake. [Bridge] Grandma's necklace, cold as it ever was. I hated that woman. I wear her because you don't get to pick what comes down the line, you just get the weight and the same tired spine. I saw myself coming up in my daughter's face, so I shut the door and I gave her the space. [Final Chorus] I fed you. I clothed you. I kept the lights on. Don't come to the table now, the table is gone. Two names on a paper, one price, one date. Accident. Embarrassment. Mistake. [Outro] Say it plain. Say it plain. DISCLAIMER This is an unofficial, fan-made music video inspired by The Coffin of Andy and Leyley. All characters and events depicted are fictional. This work does not condone or endorse the characters' actions, including the neglect and abuse of children portrayed in the game. Certain events and details in the lyrics are non-canonical and were created solely for this song. The Coffin of Andy and Leyley and all related characters and artwork are the property of their creator, Nemlei, and publisher, Kit9 Studio. This video is not affiliated with or endorsed by the rights holders. If you are a rights holder and would like this video removed, please contact me and I will take it down. #TCOAAL #ReneeGraves #TheCoffinOfAndyAndLeyley