Deep Rest

I'm okay That's what I tell myself and everyone else Things will change For better or worse, feels like I'm cursed When I'm alone And the façade I wear fades away Who will I be today? Everything I've worked to become So easily falls apart: undone I just want to find Somewhere I can rest my mind I just want to be Peacefully sleeping in the deep I'm a mess Broken and confused; nothing left to lose Second guess Every word I've said; am I why I have bled? The scars reveal And the burns they show the pain I know Why do they seem to grow? Every time I think I've found the light Something takes away my will to fight I just want to find Somewhere I can rest my mind I just want to be Peacefully sleeping in the deep If the angel is left and the devil is right Where does that leave me with the struggle inside? But when the devil is left and the angel is right How will I know that it's time to trust the light? When can I trust the light?