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im doing it again where i go in between calling them my best friends and being so mad at them, just like i did with AN, but i cut him off and left that friend group, i dont want to leave this one so i ignore my hatred S/H and sui threat mwntions D is always so quick to hate on things and people no matter what A showed us a video of their best friend cutting to beans, i said i was fine with it at the time, i need to stop agreeing with things i dont want to agree with S said my brother should khs over him being a stupid 13 year old and making problematic jokes, i get his joke was horrible and disgusting but hes a fucing 13 year old boy theyre all stupid and offensive their solution to everyone they hate is hoping they kill or cut themselves i dont like that i have another friend group and even though ive known them for years i never felt like ive fit in with them everytime i try to reach out and make friends no one answers i just want to find people who get me and like having me around i just want a healthy community where i can have fun i want people who actually talk to me i want friends