Back to Neutral

Surviving restores. Living builds. Lyrics Ready... Set... The phone has finally stopped ringing Nothing left I have to fix Everything back in its place And finally I can sit My shoulders slowly loosen Like they forgot they could For the first time in a long time Quiet feels the way it should I made it through I held the line Now maybe something can be mine Back to neutral God, it's good to breathe again Back to neutral I can finally look ahead Nothing chasing after me I can settle back where I belong Back to neutral Now I can move on I barely found my rhythm Before I heard the gun I never chose another race But somehow I was running one I kept moving till the noise died Till nothing needed me And when I crossed the finish line I thought that meant I was free Back to neutral God, it's good to breathe again Back to neutral I can finally look ahead Nothing chasing after me I can settle back where I belong Back to neutral Now I can move on The next time wasn't like the last New ground beneath my feet Different weight upon my shoulders Different path... or so it seemed I didn't know the distance Didn't know what waited there But when the finish came in sight I'd seen that line somewhere Different road Different race Different ways to lose my breath Nothing ever looked the same Until I reached the end Every finish line puts me Back at the start Back to neutral God, I need to breathe again Back to neutral Wasn't I just standing here? Nothing chasing after me I can settle back where I... ...began Back to neutral And the clock moves on Some I ran with strength still left Some I walked beneath the weight Some I crawled toward the finish Just to put things back in place Sometimes I never ran at all Just turned and walked away The race could wait forever But the clock moved anyway How many times have I come back here? How much of me did each one take? How many years did zero cost me Just to end up in the same place? I've gotten good at getting through Good at doing what must be done Wasn't this the place I should be building from? Don't tell me that I'm stronger Don't tell me what I've learned Don't show me all these finish lines Like trophies that I've earned I can run I can walk I can crawl if that's what it takes I know I'll make it through That's not what I'm asking How many times must I survive Before I get to live? Every finish line puts me Back at the start Ready... Set... Please... Do I have to go again? The noise is finally quiet Everything is back in place I'm still here Back to neutral So let me stay here For a minute