None of it happened - Jake Gallaway & ‪@DJCLAWED‬ | LYRIC VIDEO | #MelancholicPop #electronicmusic

"None of it happened. I remember it all." What do you call it when you lose something that never started? I wrote this about someone I never actually had. That's the part that took me the longest to say out loud. There was no relationship to lose. It ended before it started, and I've spent most of my life since then filling in what was never there. I know how they'd hold me. I don't know their voice. I've imagined the first date enough times that I have opinions about it. I've invented small annoyances, the chewing with the mouth open, because a person you make up needs flaws to feel real. None of it happened. I remember it all. For years I blamed them. I catalogued every flaw and tried to work out how they made me do what I did. Nobody makes you do anything. I wanted to be seen, and I didn't have enough of myself yet to turn that down. I can forgive other people easily. My own mistakes I keep going back to. People say you can't really love at that age. I don't know if that's true and I'm not sure it matters, because what I've actually been grieving isn't a person. It's an empty space I've been parking everything in ever since. There was no relationship. That is the premise. A thing cut down before it started leaves no evidence to grieve, only an empty room, and an empty room will take whatever you put in it. The verses here are sung like they happened: a first date, a joke that landed, an annoyance invented to make a person feel real. The chorus is the correction. What is being mourned is not someone, but the space where someone was supposed to go, and the years spent furnishing it. This is Jake Gallaway. An empty room. 🔗 FOLLOW Instagram: instagram.com/jake.gallaway Linktree: about.me/jakegallaway STREAM NOW Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/artist/08Jlq... Apple Music:   / jake-gallaway   💬 SHARE YOUR STORY: Is there someone you never actually had, who you still think about? xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx LYRICS: None of It Happened None of it happened I remember it all You laughed at my joke The one I practiced in the car Ordered what I would have hated I paid before you could reach I run it back, I get it right Nobody says I got it wrong Wanted to be seen Gave up everything to be seen None of it happened None of it happened I remember it all I remember it all None of it happened Don't wake me up (Don't wake me up) You chew with your mouth open And it gets me every time Then you pull the blanket over And I forget I was mad Miss the parts that never annoyed me I made you up and I made you kind I know how you'd hold me I don't know your voice None of it happened None of it happened I remember it all I remember it all None of it happened Don't wake me up (None of it was real) Somebody asks me, "So what was he to you?" I don't have a word Somebody asks me, "Did you ever even speak?" Is that so absurd? I never heard you laugh None of it happened Don't wake me up None of it happened None of it happened I remember it all I remember it all I remember it all None of it happened Don't wake me up (None of it was real) I go there at night Nobody lives there You laughed at my joke None of it... xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx Written & Performed by Jake Gallaway Produced by DJCLAWED Genre: Melancholic Pop / Orchestral / Industrial Electronic / UK Garage Location: East London, UK #JakeGallaway #NoneOfItHappened #UKGarage #MelancholicPop #ConfessionalSongwriting