Cyanthorn - The Fear of Having

A bittersweet song about finding someone who finally feels like home and realizing that love also means having something worth losing. The Fear of Having is about choosing that love anyway, letting the walls come down, and deciding that some risks are worth taking. Sometimes the fear only proves how much something means. ______ Lyrics: I used to leave a little space Between myself and everything Never enough to call it lonely Never enough to let it in Then somehow mornings started changing Your coffee sitting next to mine Your jacket hanging on the doorway Your plans appearing next to mine I stopped preparing for departure Stopped counting exits in the room Now when I picture where I'm going There's always space in it for you And that's the part I never learned How something good can make me scared The more I know that this is real The more I know how much I care You made it safe enough to break Safe enough to lose my guard Now every future wears your shape And maybe that should scare my heart The fear of having something real Is knowing there is more to lose But I would choose this every time If every road still leads to you I'd still choose you You know the parts I never mention The habits I don't recognize The way I turn a simple silence Into a hundred warning signs You never ask me to be fearless You never promise nothing ends You only make tomorrow feel like A place I'd like to reach again Maybe love was never safety Maybe that's not what I need Maybe trust is knowing something Can still matter without guarantees You made it safe enough to break Safe enough to lose my guard Now every future wears your shape And maybe that should scare my heart The fear of having something real Is knowing there is more to lose But I would choose this every time If every road still leads to you I have something to lose And I'm done running from it I could spend forever waiting For a life that cannot hurt Keep my hands around the nothing Just because nothing can't desert But you've given me a reason To stop living halfway out And I'd rather risk the ending Than never know what this is now So let the future stay uncertain Let it come without a map I don't need to know forever To know where I am standing at You made it safe enough to break And showed me I don't need my guard Now every future wears your shape And I don't have to fear that part The fear of having something real Won't make me run from what I've found I'd rather have a heart that cares Than never let my walls come down I have something worth protecting Something worth the chance I take Worth the risk Safe enough to break I used to fear what I could lose Now I'm grateful there's something to choose ______ Human made - AI assisted #fearofhaving #loveandfear #cyanthorn #heartfeltmusic #music #bittersweet #lovesong #longdistancerelationship #longdistancelovesong #metalcore #melodicmetalcore