Blackbear - Still Here (feat. Trevor Daniel) (LEAK)

Ooh shit I miss Trevor [Verse 3] Woke up late in a hotel I don't remember booking Phone blown up, forty missed calls, somebody's looking I don't answer, I just stare at the ceiling a minute Last night's shirt still on me and I'm still in it You said you're done, said it calm, said it like a weather report I said cool, walked out, didn't slam the door That's the thing about me, I don't fight, I just go ghost Leave the room cold, let you tell it how it goes [Pre-Chorus] And I know, and I know, and I know how it sounds Like I don't care at all, like I'm not around But I'm up at 4 a.m. with your name in my mouth Trying not to call, trying not to drive south [Chorus] So I pour one up and I toast to the mess To the girl I ruined and the guy I was then I ain't proud of the way that I left But I'm here, I'm still here, I'm still here [Post-Chorus] Yeah, yeah, still here Yeah, yeah, still here Oh, oh, still here I'm still here [Verse 4] My whole crew say I changed, say I'm moving different I got money in the bank but it don't fix the distance Mama ask me how I'm doing, I just say I'm busy Truth is I ain't slept right since the city went and lost you in it I keep your hoodie in the trunk like a secret I'm keeping Every time I open up, it still smells like the weekend And I laugh, 'cause I'm grown, 'cause I'm supposed to be fine But I'd trade the whole catalogue to get one more night [Outro] (One more night) (One more night) Yeah, I'd trade it all (Trade it all) But I'm still here [Verse 5] Called your number twice, hung up before the second ring That's a whole lot of nothing just to feel one thing I got a brand new address, still sleep on the left side Half the bed made up, half of it's been your side Everybody say time heal, time ain't never showed up I've been counting every summer like a debt that I owe up I ain't bitter, I'm just honest, there's a difference One's a closed fist, one's a door that's still open a little [Pre-Chorus] And I know, and I know, and I know what they say That a man like me just moves on anyway But I'm parked outside your old street, headlights off Talking to myself like I ain't already lost [Chorus] So I pour one up and I toast to the mess To the girl I ruined and the guy I was then I ain't proud of the way that I left But I'm here, I'm still here, I'm still here [Post-Chorus] Yeah, yeah, still here Yeah, yeah, still here Oh, oh, still here I'm still here [Verse 6] I been out in LA where it never rains, it just glows Everybody famous for a night then they go I met a girl that kinda laughed like you, kinda didn't Took her home and drove her back and I felt nothing for a minute Then it hit me in the driveway, ugly and slow That the worst part of losing you is losing who I was before I ain't crying in the whip, I'm just sitting in it Letting silence do the talking 'cause I never learned to finish [Bridge] Maybe I'm the one who's gotta say it out loud Maybe I'm the one who's gotta put the bottle down Maybe I'm the one who's gotta call and not hang up Maybe I'm the one, maybe I'm the one I don't want a second chance, I just want you to know I was listening the whole time, I was just moving slow Every word you ever said is sitting somewhere in my chest And I'm sorry that it took me this long to confess [Chorus] So I pour one up and I toast to the mess To the girl I ruined and the guy I was then I ain't proud of the way that I left But I'm here, I'm still here, I'm still here [Post-Chorus] Yeah, yeah, still here Yeah, yeah, still here Oh, oh, still here I'm still here [Verse 7] Mama called me back, said son you sound tired I said I'm good, I'm just working, I'm just wired She said the only thing you can't buy is your peace So I bought a house, still ain't found it in me I keep a picture in a drawer that I don't open Not 'cause I'm over it, 'cause I'm scared of hoping And if you ever hear this on a late-night drive I hope it finds you well, I hope you're doing alright [Outro] (Doing alright) (Doing alright) Yeah, I hope you're doing fine (Doing fine) And I'm still here Still here Still here Still here (Still here)