What Is This

[Intro] What is this? Tell me, what the hell is this? We share a bed, we share a life, But I can't feel you when you hold me tight. Sure as hell, it ain't love... Maybe it's just two lonely people Afraid to be alone. [Verse 1] I wake up beside you, But I've never felt so far away. There's a silence in this bedroom That gets louder every day. You know the shape of my body, But you don't know my soul. You know the way to touch me, But you've never really held me. And I wonder in the darkness, When the world has gone to sleep, What it must feel like to be loved to be somebody's everything. [Pre-Chorus] Now I sit looking out the window, Watching years go drifting by. And I wonder if true love Was something I wasn't meant to find. [Chorus] What is this? Is this what we call love? Two bodies lying side by side, Still never close enough. A lonely kind of touch. You take my body in the darkness, But you never take my heart. And I've spent so many years pretending. What is this? Tell me, what the hell is this? [Verse 2] I've said, "I love you," When I wasn't sure I did. I've smiled through the moments When my heart was barely living. I played the part of someone Who had finally found her home, While a little voice inside me Kept whispering, "You're alone." I thought if I could love you harder, If I gave you all I had, Maybe you would see the woman Behind the fake smile. But you can't make somebody love you By becoming someone you're not. And I lost so much of who I was Trying to keep what we never had. [Bridge] I've never known the kind of love That makes a woman feel safe. The kind that sees her deepest wounds And doesn't turn away. The kind that says, "I've got you," When the whole world falls apart. The kind that doesn't need a reason To stay and hold my hand. And now I'm getting older, And the hope is wearing thin. I've buried so many dreams I don't know where to begin. They say love comes when you least expect it, But what if mine passed me by? What if all these empty years Are all I'm gonna find? [Final Chorus] What is this? Is this what we call love? A lifetime spent together, But never feeling enough. Two strangers in the night. I've given you my body, But my heart was never touched. And I've never known true love, The kind that reaches down inside. The kind that makes you feel You don't have to hide. And as the years keep passing, I keep telling myself... Maybe love ain't meant for me, or to be somebody's Everything. [Outro] What is this? Tell me, what the hell is this? I can live without the promises... But I don't know how to stop wishing For something I've never had. Maybe true love ain't meant for me... Or maybe... I'm still waiting for it to find me.