Close My Eyes - Avichail

Some nights, closing your eyes is harder than facing the truth. A song about heartbreak, sleepless nights, losing someone who was your home for years — and trying to survive one more day. 🖤 “Close My Eyes” I’m afraid to close my eyes... [Verse 1] I wanted to write you letters I wrote and wrote and wrote There was something I needed to tell you Something I needed you to know I wanted you to know I truly loved you But you didn't want to hear You asked me not to send them So I put them all away Then I erased them I don't want to know [Pre-Chorus] I don't want to remember What I wrote inside those pages 'Cause none of it means anything now When there's nowhere left to send it [Chorus] I'm afraid to close my eyes 'Cause the thoughts come rushing in I'd rather stare at reality Even when it hurts like this But my imagination takes over And my body turns against me I can't eat, I can't drink I can't fall asleep [Verse 2] I stare into the darkness Trying to understand How a lifetime disappears With just a few words Everything we ever had Keeps running through my mind Your voice, our home, our memories Everything I was afraid to lose [Pre-Chorus] And I'm searching for an answer That probably doesn't exist Searching for somewhere to put All the pain I can't resist But the night gives me no answers And the silence screams instead So I'm left here by myself With a heart filled up with fear [Chorus] I'm afraid to close my eyes 'Cause the thoughts come rushing in I'd rather stare at reality Even when it hurts like this But my imagination takes over And my body turns against me I can't eat, I can't drink I can't fall asleep [Bridge] Twenty years inside my memory How do you erase a life? How do you turn the one who was your home Into someone left behind? I know you can't hold on To something that's letting go But my heart still doesn't understand My heart still waits for you [Final Chorus] I'm afraid to close my eyes But tonight I'll let them close I won't run from reality Even when it breaks me Maybe the thoughts will hurt me Maybe my body still betrays me But somehow this night will pass Even if I don't believe it now I can't eat, I can't drink I can barely fall asleep But I'm still here I'm still here Waiting for the morning [Outro] Maybe when I open my eyes Everything will still be the same But I'll still be here One more day