Sri Kunju Swami and Bhagavan's Glance of Grace | Ramana Gracie | Ramana Maharshi Grace | Ramanaar

It was in 1919 that I first came to Sri Bhagavan.[1] He was then living at Skandasramam on the slope of the Arunachala Hill. His mother and brother lived with him. Palaniswami used to attend to his few personal wants. Plague had dríven away most of the inhabitants of the town and consequently visitors to Sri Bhagavan were very few. I was therefore, left alone with Sri Bhagavan most of the time He used to look at me and his eyes had, as is well-known, a strange brilliance and fascination in them. When I had looked into his eyes for some time I saw a bright effulgence. I could not say whence it came but it had the effect of making me forget everything. It was not like sleep for I was fully aware. I was also filled with a strange peace and bliss. I came back to myself with a shudder after some time. This experience occurred again and again during all the seventeen days that I stayed with Bhagavan. I was like one intoxicated. I was absolutely indifferent to everything. I had no curiosity to see anything, no desire whatsoever. What I did I did most mechanically. I would have continued to live in this state if it had not occurred to me that it was not proper to partake of the food that was offerred to Sri Bhagavan by his devotees without paying anything. I thought that he had initiated me into the experience of Brahman and that I had nothing more to gain by staying in his presence. I therefore returned to my native place and began to practise meditation in a room in my house all by myself. I could succeed to gain and retain that experience only for a few days; it started to diminish gradually and at last one day it was lost. I could not regain the experience. I decided to return to Sri Bhagavan. This I did, and great good fortune awaited me when I came.