The Man i Thought you Were

[INTRO - FEMALE WHISPER] I don't miss the pain… I miss the man I thought would never cause it. [VERSE 1 - FEMALE] You held my hand when the world got too loud, Made me feel safe, made me stand tall in a crowd. We danced in the kitchen, laughed into the night, You made the darkest places feel alright. I gave you a wife’s love without the name, Kept holding on while you kept changing the game. I thought you were home, my forever, my truth, I never imagined I'd be grieving you. [PRE-CHORUS] You left, you returned, said you'd finally changed, Put your heart in my hands, then walked away again. And every time I let you back inside, Another little piece of me died. [CHORUS - POWERFUL] I miss who I thought you were, The arms that held me, the words I heard. I miss the peace before the promises broke, Before forever became another cruel joke. You say you love me, you say you've changed, But your sorry sounds the same, and the ending won't change. There's still a part of me that aches for you, But I can't love the man I can't trust to be true. [VERSE 2 - FEMALE] Two little losses, two worlds turned to grey, I needed you beside me, but you walked away. While I was breaking, you were somewhere else, I had to learn to hold my heart myself. You say you stayed away to keep us safe, But how does leaving explain the hurt you gave? You say I pushed you, say I wanted you gone, But I was begging you to choose us all along. [PRE-CHORUS] You tell me what you think I need to hear, Then give me another reason to live in fear. You want forgiveness to erase the past, But how can I believe a love that never lasts? [CHORUS - POWERFUL] I miss who I thought you were, The arms that held me, the words I heard. I miss the peace before the promises broke, Before forever became another cruel joke. You say you love me, you say you've changed, But your sorry sounds the same, and the ending won't change. There's still a part of me that aches for you, But I can't love the man I can't trust to be true. [BRIDGE - QUIET, BUILDING] And yes, I still want you sometimes, My body remembers what my heart can't find. But wanting your touch doesn't mean you're my home, I can crave your arms and still leave alone. I don't know if the good was a mask or real, I only know what your leaving made me feel. I want to believe you, God, I wish I could, But wanting to trust you doesn't mean that I should. [FINAL CHORUS - EXPLOSIVE] I miss who I thought you were, The man who made me feel I mattered first. But I won't keep bleeding to prove I can stay, Love isn't enough when the trust fades away. You can swear forever, you can beg me to see, But the man in your actions is the man you show me. There's still a part of me that loves you, it's true, But love can't make me feel safe with you. [OUTRO - WHISPER] I don't miss being yours… I miss believing you were mine.