Someone cast a magic spell on me, please

Why is this text in cursive? I don't know. I want an FC on this with AR-20 so badly, and yet I cannot even attempt it with AR-5. It sickens me to the very core of my existence not to be able to just play any reading. I'm really afraid it'll never get better, and still I come back here day in and day out. Is it madness that drives me? Is it pure stupidity? F[redacted] [redacted] [redacted]