SREAMS YOU NEVER HEAR

Can you hear me? Or are you just waiting For your turn to speak? I'm trying to tell you where it hurts… Why does it always end with me Apologizing for the pain I feel? I've been holding back these words for so damn long, Trying to find a way to tell you something's wrong. Every time I open up, you turn it into war, Now I'm standing here afraid to speak anymore. I'm not trying to attack you, I'm just trying to explain, But you twist around my feelings Like I'm the one who caused the pain. And I'm drowning in the silence Of the things we never say, While the truth is buried deeper Every time you look away. Tell me, do you even see me? Do you hear a single word? I'm screaming from the inside, But my voice will never hurt… Unless I let it out! I'M SO SICK OF SCREAMING AT THE WALLS! SO SICK OF FEELING NOTHING AT ALL! I tell you that I'm broken, You turn my pain into a fight! YOU SAY YOU DIDN'T DO A THING! While I'm choking on the hurt you bring! I'm begging for the truth, But you keep denying what I see! CAN YOU HEAR ME NOW?! CAN YOU HEAR ME NOW?! I'm falling apart, and you're watching me drown! There's a war inside my head that never sleeps, A thousand things I feel but never speak. I replay every moment, every word, Wondering if my side will ever be heard. Maybe I've made mistakes I can't erase, Maybe I've got scars I cannot face. But I'm trying to be better than before, Why does trying make me feel like I'm at war? I don't need you to be perfect, I don't need you to be blind, I just need some honesty And a heart that meets mine. I'm not asking you to carry Every burden that I bear, I'm just asking you to listen Like you actually still care. I'm so tired of the questions That get buried in the blame. I'm so tired of explaining Why I'm hurting once again. If the truth is gonna break us, Then what are we holding on to? I'm still standing here and fighting, But I don't know what to do! I'M SO SICK OF SCREAMING AT THE WALLS! SO SICK OF FEELING NOTHING AT ALL! I tell you that I'm broken, You turn my pain into a fight! YOU SAY YOU DIDN'T DO A THING! While I'm choking on the hurt you bring! I'm begging for the truth, But you keep denying what I see! CAN YOU HEAR ME NOW?! CAN YOU HEAR ME NOW?! I'm falling apart, and you're watching me drown! Clean, trembling vocals: Maybe I'm not innocent… Maybe I've been wrong. Maybe we both lost ourselves Somewhere along this road. But I don't want to hate you. I don't want another war. I just want the kind of love We thought we had before. I DON'T WANT TO LIVE INSIDE THIS PAIN! I DON'T WANT TO DROWN IN YESTERDAY! I'M MORE THAN ALL THE TEARS I'VE CRIED! THERE'S STILL A PART OF ME THAT'S ALIVE! I'VE MADE MISTAKES! I'VE LOST MY WAY! BUT I WON'T LET THIS DARKNESS TAKE MY NAME! I'M STILL HERE! I'M STILL TRYING! EVEN WITH THESE BROKEN WINGS, I'M STILL FIGHTING! LOOK AT ME! NOT THE ANGER! NOT THE BLAME! NOT THE MAN YOU SAY I AM! LOOK AT ME! I'M STILL HUMAN! I STILL BLEED! I STILL HAVE A HEART THAT BEGS FOR YOU TO HEAR ME! I DON'T NEED TO WIN THIS FIGHT! I JUST WANT TO MAKE THINGS RIGHT! Whispered: Please… just hear me. I'M DONE WITH SCREAMING AT THE WALLS! I WON'T LET MYSELF DISAPPEAR AT ALL! I've carried all this sorrow, I've been broken by the night! I DESERVE THE TRUTH, NOT WAR! I can't keep bleeding on this floor! I'll face the man I've been, And fight to find myself once more! CAN YOU HEAR ME NOW?! I'M STILL HERE SOMEHOW! With a shattered heart, I'm standing my ground! I MAY BE BROKEN! I MAY BE SCARRED! BUT I WON'T LET THIS PAIN DEFINE MY HEART! I'm not asking for perfection… I'm just asking to be heard. Maybe hope is just a whisper In a world that feels so hurt. I don't know where we go from here. I don't know what tomorrow brings. But beneath the weight of all this pain… There's still a voice inside of me. Whispered, fading into silence: I'm still here. I'm still trying. Can you hear me?