Fearful Heart

I want you near, then I need my space, I miss your voice, then I hide my face. You give me love, I look for the catch, You strike the flame, I’m scared of the match. I know it’s confusing, I know it ain’t fair, I pull you closer, then act like I don’t care. Truth is, you see me more than I like, You found the soft underneath all the ice. I learned real young, don’t need too much, Don’t lean too hard, don’t trust that touch. But you came along, now my rules don’t work, You make love feel good—and somehow that hurts. When you get too close, I run away, Then lie awake wishing you would stay. Say I need space, but I miss your face, Push you away, then I crave your embrace. I want your love, but I fear it too, Scared I’ll disappear if I fall into you. So if I go cold when the feeling gets real, It ain’t that I don’t—it’s how much I feel. I can handle distance, I know that game, But tenderness hits me a different way. Chaos is easy, calm feels strange, You give me steady—I wait for it to change. Every sweet word makes my defenses rise, I search for goodbye behind loving eyes. You call it safe, but I call it unknown, I got too damn good at being alone. So when you reach me, I might retreat, Heart saying stay while I move my feet. I know what I do, yeah, I see it clear, Sometimes love looks a lot like fear. When you get too close, I run away, Then lie awake wishing you would stay. Say I need space, but I miss your face, Push you away, then I crave your embrace. I want your love, but I fear it too, Scared I’ll disappear if I fall into you. So if I go cold when the feeling gets real, It ain’t that I don’t—it’s how much I feel. Maybe one day I won’t need these walls, Won’t expect forever to suddenly fall. Maybe I’ll learn love don’t mean losing me, That staying can feel like being free. I’m trying, baby, more than you know, Fighting the instinct telling me go. If I take one step while my fear says run, Maybe this time I won’t come undone. When you get too close, I wanna run, But maybe this time I won’t become The one who leaves what I wanted most, Then spends every night loving your ghost. I want your love, yeah, I finally do, I’m just learning how to stay close to you. So if I go quiet when the feeling gets real, Hold a little space while I learn how to feel. Too close… I run. Too far… I ache. Maybe love is learning Which walls I’m ready to break. ——————— About This Song An original song created from my own concept, lyrical direction, and creative vision. I write and develop songs around real emotions, experiences, relationships, psychology, spirituality, healing, personal growth, and the beautifully complicated experience of being human. Creation & Production Concept / Creative Direction: Original Lyrics: Original creative work developed by me, with AI-assisted writing/editing where applicable Music & Audio Production: Created with the assistance of Suno AI Visual Artwork: Original / AI-assisted where applicable AI is used as a creative production tool—not as a replacement for the ideas, emotions, stories, and meaning behind the music. If this one resonates with you, I’d love to know what you heard in it. © 2026. All original creative concepts and lyrics reserved.