The Floor Came Up To Meet Me

Everything I Traded For This - Chapter VI: The Collapse Verse 1 Don't remember driving home Just remember sitting in the car in the dark Couldn't make my body get out Couldn't make my body do anything, do any part Two days in bed, phone off First time in a decade I let it ring and ring Everyone assumed something happened Something did— I just stopped functioning Chorus The floor came up to meet me And I finally, finally let it I'd been running so long I forgot that falling was an option Forgot I could just— Quit The floor came up to meet me Not a punishment, just a stop Not the end of everything Just the first time in years I let myself drop Verse 2 My mom flew in, didn't ask questions Just made soup, just sat with me a while I hadn't let anyone see me Not like this, not without the practiced smile She said "I've been waiting for this call— For years, I just didn't know when it'd come" I said "why didn't you stop me" She said "baby, you never would've heard it from—" Chorus The floor came up to meet me And I finally, finally let it I'd been running so long I forgot that falling was an option Forgot I could just— Quit The floor came up to meet me Not a punishment, just a stop Not the end of everything Just the first time in years I let myself drop Bridge I thought stopping would feel like— Feel like failing Turns out it just feels like— Finally breathing I thought the floor would break me Turns out I needed something to catch me, Something worth believing— Final Chorus The floor came up to meet me And for once I didn't fight the fall I just lay there a while Let myself be small, Let myself be small The floor came up to meet me And maybe that's not the worst thing that could happen Maybe that's just the moment Before the actual rebuilding Before the actual, honest— True beginning—