Painting Consciousness — Shame, Repression, and How to Be Happy Now

From Satsang 2026-09-20: "Painting Consciousness — Shame, Repression, and How to Be Happy Now" "I still talked about shame and fear about my little linga, and even when I need to talk about it now, I still feel resistance. And this morning my mind was like should I not go to Udita, and I was like no I do not give myself a choice." "It's very brave of you to talk about that. We had a little practice, it's called painting consciousness, to paint or draw out what's inside of them not trying to control. He drew his little linga which he's claimed that he's very shameful to have one." "I even advise him to give himself flowers even though he's a man, because I think that men deserve flowers too. That flower is actually the genital parts of the plant, so why would you ashamed of your linga." "Shame only exist if other people right, if you're only with yourself there's no shame, so it's all about how others see you in the public. You don't give a fuck about other people think about you is you dealing with your shame." "We're living in society that people are taught to repress their emotion, it's like when you were kid, and you just cry and you laugh, and it's natural. Now even like talking about being happy is pressure too, like you have to wake up at 5am doing yoga and then be happy like everyone else on social media, how about I want to cry shit, can I cry." "When you are real, the only people that will stay are the real ones, all the fake ones will go away and you can live a more peaceful life with no fake people around. Those who like you will stay and those don't like, fuck them. So be a wolf be independent." In this Satsang we talk about painting consciousness — drawing what's inside you without control, and why shame about your body is beautiful to share. Why men deserve flowers too — a flower is the genital part of a plant, we display them everywhere. How shame only exists because of other people, and how I broke my prison of controlling expression from my business and politics years. Why our generation represses more than any before — we express to get accepted on social media, not genuinely. The promise to always be happy like a child, and how to be happy now instead of in the past — just stay true to your feeling, cry if you want to cry, destroy your image. When you are real, fake people go away and real ones stay — be a wolf, be independent. And moving to UAE, time change for next Satsang. Satsang every Sunday, 6pm GST / Dubai. Open and free for all. Join our WhatsApp group to get the Zoom link before each session. https://chat.whatsapp.com/Ijutv4PmN0c... To go deeper, join our Unbound Sangha for exclusive content, ask question & live gatherings:   / uditaprem   Read essays, audiobooks and podcast on Substack: https://substack.com/@uditaprem Instagram: @uditaprem Website: uditaprem.com #shame #repression #behappy #real #satsang