Sham of a Wedding [Out of my System] (OFFICIAL DEMO RECORDING)

Lyrics - I put on a skirt I hadn't worn in years And walked down the aisle to swallow my tears In a backyard standing like my parents stood Playing a part like we knew we should We both knew the vows were just lines we say But I let myself lean in anyway It’s a sham of a wedding a trick of the light A ghost of a boy living in my mind Stringing old beads on a memory chain Eating deja vu on a paper plate I felt so loved in a world that’s not real But it’s time to wake up it's time that I heal Yeah it’s about damn time I get you out of my system You told a story that never took place And I caught myself staring right at your face Waiting for a card from the ones who won't call Watching the shadows dance on the wall We’re playing a game of "what could have been" But I know how this story is going to end It’s a sham of a wedding a trick of the light A ghost of a boy living in my mind Stringing old beads on a memory chain eating deja vu on a paper plate I felt so loved in a world that’s not real But it’s time to wake up it's time that I heal Yeah it’s about damn time I get you out of my system I don't miss the boy from back then I just miss the feeling of someone knowin' This isn't about the history we lost It’s about reclaiming myself whatever the cost The honeymoon's delayed 'cause we're going nowhere Just me waking up breathing morning air From a sham of a wedding a trick of the light A ghost of a boy living in my mind Stringing old beads on a memory chain I'm dropping the lie and i'm dropping the plate I felt so loved in a world that’s not real But I'm opening my eyes and I'm ready to heal Yeah it’s about damn time I got you out of my system Out of my system.