Self-Harm on a Tuesday

This track was only made possible due to the support on Patreon. Written/Produced/Composed by LWDGNG I knew the signs in my own dumb face Jaw locked up, hands in the wrong place took the pills in the drawer I don’t use those put the thoughts in the rear-view One breath in, one breath out Window cracked, let the stale air out Sink full of dishes, trash by the door I’ve been here before, been here before Self-harm on a Tuesday, I almost went there Three bad thoughts and a hand in the snare Stayed in the room while the panic rode through Hidden from the sun where the shadows don't move Self-harm on a Tuesday, I heard it call me Old habits talk like they know me One wrong step and I’d disappear So I stayed in the frame and stayed right here Seen too many nights get swallowed by a minute two hundred milligrams and I’m right back in it So I keep my gun by the hole in the wall No dark little ritual, no last call Corner store run, I’m back with lunch Cold air on my face till the worst parts numb pause just to eat cuz the thoughts go down Just to watch me finish and come back loud Blue TV glow on the wall too plain Tuesday drags, but it don't stall pain If you hear me getting quiet don't check on me Maybe It's my time, maybe I'm set free Stay through, no script, no show Just a slow little burn when I feel that low Front to back, then I cut that thought guess I won't have to make that call Self-harm on a Tuesday, I almost went there Three bad thoughts and a hand in the snare Stayed in the room while the panic ride through Hidden from the sun where the shadows don't move Self-harm on a Tuesday, I heard it call me Old habits talk like they know me One wrong step and I’d disappear So I stayed in the frame and stayed right here Self-harm on a Tuesday, I caught myself runnin Still here on the next one, still working on it ➤  / lwdgng   ➤business email: Inkrediblexx@yahoo.com ➤https://www.paypal.com/paypalme/lwdgng ➤Discord [Patreon Elite Exclusive] ➤Download Link [Patreon Elite Exclusive]