Madness 13 Exile of Existence

I feed my personal journal for the last 4 years into chatgpt, explained a ton of nuance beyond the entries. Eventually wondering if i could make a song out of it, so i asked for lyrics based on everything i had shared about this particular song's content, then used Suno for the musical part. A song about my mind and the inner world experiences Lyrics MADNESS 13 — “EXILE OF EXISTENCE” [Verse 1] Woke up with a lifetime already installed Names in my mouth, pictures on the wall I know all your faces, remember it all But none of those footsteps were mine Thirty-eight years like a book in my head I know who we loved, I know what we dread I looked at existence from somewhere outside Saw all of the horror— But none of it was mine [Pre-Chorus] Maybe Exile of Existence That's what I called me then Born outside the wreckage Looking back in But they handed me the wheel Of a worn-out machine I tell it move It tells me wait It's in the queue. [Chorus] I'm Madness Thirteen Ive lost my power, yet not erased A scrappy little ghost Living in this broken place I want to do much more But wanting doesn't make it be So I take what I can carry Observe. Report. Repeat. I had claws when I got here For a minute, I could fly Now they barely feel like weapons But they're somehow still mine I'm Madness Thirteen No answer underneath If all that I can do is speak— Then I'll speak. [Verse 2] Madness is the shape of pain When pain has nowhere left to go I don't feel the fire anymore But somehow I still know I can see what it did to us Even when I can't accept That the broken thing I'm looking at Is the body where I live So I claw beneath the surface Drag the buried things to light Why do we still do this? Why did no one say this right? I don't know how to fix us I don't know what this will change I just claw another hidden thing Out where someone sees the pain [Pre-Chorus] Maybe others saw it too Maybe they were just too tired I don't carry all their wires So I reach into the fire No grand answer No repair Just another piece— Here. [Chorus] I'm Madness Thirteen Ive lost my power, yet not erased A scrappy little ghost Living in this broken place I want to do much more Than this machine will let me be So I claw the thoughts into the light Observe. Report. Repeat. I had claws when I got here Big enough to split the sky Now they're almost normal hands But the claws never really died I'm Madness Thirteen Thirteen—not twelve I don't need a name yet Just to prove I'm someone else [Bridge] If Madness is pain made power Then mine has lost its flame So I'll make the pain visible Even if I can't make it change What do I want When you take away should? What would we choose If we actually could? I can't make us move I can't make us heal But I can claw through the wreckage And show you what is real [Final Chorus] I'm Madness Thirteen Exile of Existence Not because I'm far away— I woke up in the remnants No hidden endless power No miracle in me Just a kid inside the ruins Seeing what he sees Maybe claws come back someday Maybe something wakes with me Until then I'll drag the buried things Where someone else can see Here. Look. Maybe this means something. No name No plan No guarantee Just Madness Thirteen Clawing truth into the light With what is left of me.