have mercy on my heart

HAVE MERCY ON MY HEART [Intro – soft piano, whispered/sung] I don't need you to save me... I just need you to stop hurting me While you're telling me you love me. Yeah... --- [Verse 1 – melodic rap, intimate] Tell me, how'd we get here? How'd something so good turn into this fear? One minute you're holding me close to your chest, Next minute I'm wondering if you want me less. And I'm tired of reading every message twice, Tired of pretending that I'm doing alright. 'Cause you say that you love me, I know that you do, But sometimes your actions don't sound like you. I gave you the truth, every bruise, every scar, Let you walk through the doors I'd been keeping barred. Didn't need perfection, didn't ask for a lot, Just don't make me question everything that we've got. [Rap begins building] 'Cause I'll fight for a man when the whole world won't, I'll believe in his dreams when he tells me he don't. I'll sit through the darkness and wait for the dawn, But I can't keep fighting if you're already gone. --- [Pre-Chorus – SUNG, building] So if you want me... Want me all the way. Don't promise me forever If forever changes every day. I can handle the truth, Even if it tears me apart... But baby, please... --- [CHORUS – HUGE SUNG VOCAL] HAVE MERCY ON MY HEART! If you're gonna break it, break it now! Don't keep pulling me into your arms Just to turn around and shut me out! If you love me, then LOVE ME! Like losing me would leave a scar. And if you can't give me all of you... Have mercy... On my heart. --- [Verse 2 – RAP, heavier beat enters] Look— I'm not asking for diamonds, a house or a ring, I'm asking for consistency—that's everything. Don't need pretty words when you're lying beside me, I need to know tomorrow you'll still stand beside me. See, love ain't a feeling you switch on and off, It ain't running away every time shit gets tough. It's choosing somebody when choosing gets hard, It's protecting their heart when you've memorised their scars. [Rap gets faster] And maybe I'm difficult, maybe I'm loud, Maybe when I'm scared I don't make you proud. Maybe I've got baggage, yeah, haven't we all? But when you were breaking, who answered your call? Who stayed when the darkness was swallowing you? Who looked at your worst and still saw something true? Who said, "Give me your hand, we'll get through this together"? I never needed easy— I JUST NEEDED FOREVER TO MEAN FOREVER. --- [CHORUS – drums + guitar explode] So HAVE MERCY ON MY HEART! If you're gonna break it, break it now! I'd rather bleed from something honest Than slowly die inside your doubt! If you love me, then LOVE ME! Don't just say it in the dark! If you're staying, then stand beside me— AND HAVE MERCY ON MY HEART! --- [Rap Bridge – beat drops, dark and raw] Wait... Maybe mercy isn't leaving. Maybe mercy isn't staying. Maybe mercy is deciding And finally meaning what you're saying. 'Cause I've spent too many nights Fighting wars inside my head, Trying to translate your silence, Trying to hear the words you never said. And I know love ain't perfect. I know people lose their way. I know sometimes someone's hurting And they don't know how to stay. But I can't love you enough For the both of us forever. Can't keep stitching up a wound While you're pulling at the thread. [Faster, angrier rap] I CAN'T— Keep begging for effort, Keep begging for time, Keep asking myself if your heart's really mine. Keep lowering the bar just to keep you around, Keep swallowing words while I'm breaking down. I love you— God, I love you. That's exactly why this hurts. But loving you should never mean I have to love myself less first. --- [Silence] [Soft sung vocal] So choose me... Not when it's convenient. Not when you're lonely. Choose me when it's hard. --- [FINAL CHORUS – massive vocal + choir] HAVE MERCY ON MY HEART! If you're gonna break it, break it now! Don't give me another almost-love, I need forever or I need out! And if you love me, then LOVE ME! With every broken, messy part! I'll stand beside you through the fire— BUT DON'T SET FIRE TO MY HEART! [Choir] Have mercy! Have mercy! [Lead vocal] If I'm your person— CHOOSE ME! If I'm your future— SHOW ME! If I'm your home... COME HOME! [Huge final note] HAVE MERCY ON MY HEAAAAART! --- [Outro – piano only, almost whispered] I never asked you to love me perfectly... I just asked you to love me deliberately. And if you can't... Have mercy on my heart.