Feldup - Towards Happiness [OFFICIAL AUDIO]

Feldup & The Showerheads - "Towards Happiness", released September 18 2026 on Talitres • Bandcamp: https://bit.ly/felduptowardsbc • Talitres: https://bit.ly/felduptowardstal • Digital: https://bit.ly/felduptowardsdig © Talitres 2026 LYRICS: It's bittersweet It's 5AM and I'm not sleeping The breakdown has ended And I can glimpse the light of day There's a peaceful hum in the air The closet Paris comes to silence And you've seen me falling lately Picking clothes in my dirty laundry Forcing myself to brush my teeth And giving up continuously But this morning For the first time in a year Not a single muscle is strained And everything seems to make sense I know there's something wrong with me It's something that can't be fixed But I wish you could see this The sky is so pretty and I'll keep trying I know there's something wrong with me I feel it in every limb Every thing is so vibrant Yet it all kinda feels the same And I'll keep trying And you know it well Tomorrow it will start again All my limbs will tense up And I'll start shaking uncontrollably But I don't want everything to end Ever since Alex's funeral I've been celebrating every birthday I promise I'll make it past his age One day I'll stop swimming I'll get up on the shore and start walking I know there's something wrong with me It's something that can't be fixed But I wish you could see this The sky is so pretty and nothing hurts I know there's something wrong with me I feel it in every limb Switched my pills for some new ones Maybe it'll work this time Please I haven't read the news in forever I heard it's nasty out there I heard it's not getting better And I better not care Lately I've been slipping a lot And I've been thinking about the past I can't seem to forgive my younger self I can't seem to see him as a kid I remember the night you got so emotional You were begging me to love this child But every time I think about it all I want to bash his head to the fucking ground There's black tar in the eye of my storm All this pain I felt but still had to perform So many spines around my shell So many notches around my heart Everytime you try to reassure me I get irritated I get angry And then I crumble completely In your arms vulnerable and sick I hear sirens in the distance And they're howling out of tune You tell me nothing ever happens But it always happens all at once I'll forever be stuck with myself I'll forever be stuck with myself I'll forever be stuck with myself I'll forever be stuck with myself I'll forever be stuck with myself I'll forever be stuck with myself I'll forever be stuck with myself I'll forever be stuck with myself I'll forever be stuck with myself I'll forever be stuck with myself I'll forever be stuck with myself I'll forever be stuck with myself I'll forever be stuck with myself I'll forever be stuck with myself I'll forever be stuck with myself I'll forever be stuck with myself I'll forever be stuck with myself I'll forever be stuck with myself I'll forever be stuck with myself I'll forever be stuck with myself I'll forever be stuck with myself I'll forever be stuck with myself I'll forever be stuck with myself I'll forever be stuck with myself I'll forever be stuck with myself I'll forever be stuck with myself I'll forever be stuck with myself I'll forever be stuck with myself I'll forever be stuck with myself I'll forever be stuck with myself I'll forever be stuck with myself I'll forever be stuck with myself And even though it can get dark Inside my head I'm trying to untie the knots I'm trying to make it all fit I know I tried to end it So many times before But baby I promise That's not how I'm gonna go I don't ever want to know That somewhere all alone You're crying like a child At some idiot's funeral One day you'll see me smile And it won't be the perfect kind But it will be genuine enough That you won't have to question it But if one day you go I'll listen to the waves Because in the white noise Your voice will remain And if one day I go Try and do the same --- Find Talitres on... Facebook:   / talitres   Instagram:   / talitres   Bluesky: https://bsky.app/profile/talitres-off... Mastodon: https://mastodon.social/@talitres TikTok:   / talitres   Bandcamp: https://talitres.bandcamp.com/ Soundcloud:   / talitres   Website: http://www.talitres.com/ Subscribe : https://bit.ly/talyoutubesub #feldup #theshowerheads #towardshappiness #talitres