0TS / Limited time art installation ft. Adachi Rei

ARE YOU IN CONTROL? This is a re-upload. I'm sorry for betraying my own message by taking it down in the first place. :~) ---- Music/Lyrics/Mix/Illust ~ 0TS Vocals ~ Adachi Rei C+V ---- Make, display, conflate, erase it Can’t contain aversion, hate Rebuild, restore, replace, have faith I hope that you’ll extend your stay Placed on display, I’m posed and postured like a doll Keeping watch is now your job, security and scrutiny Beauty is pain, and it’s a vapor that you breathe Like a fracture in a statue, it’ll bring you to your knees Every piece, every stricture, every stitch held together by a promise that there’s more to this Despite your tears, I can’t bring back what I’ve erased Falling is the framework built by me Human error in the heartless industry What I wanted was a work that stood for me I couldn’t say it with you, “I still believe.” I see you in the things I used to be and I see it in my past, a legacy Can I make it to a future where I’m meant to be A person that’s entirely free? Perfect or pointless, there is no in-between Is there meaning in settling, in making peace with ingenuity? Preserving the pointless never alters a thing so I’ll end each sonata with a silent plea I wish that I could relive every moment of wasted time and fix most every fracture, sanded down, product redefined I’m falling out of line, I want to mean a little more I want to dream a little more Oh, please don’t wake me up, I’m not ready ---- MY TWITTER ~ https://x.com/0TSXL MY COMMUNITY DISCORD ~   / discord   SUPPORT ME ~ https://ko-fi.com/0tenshi BANDCAMP LINK ~ https://0tenshi.bandcamp.com/track/li... DIGITAL PRE-ORDERS FOR THE EP "Blood is the only thing we don't share": https://0tenshi.bandcamp.com/album/bl... ---- My left ear was clogged as I was finishing the mix... scary. I want to improve with each song, so road bumps like this have been hard to pick myself up from. When writing an EP about my relationship with my online presence, I am faced with a raw version of myself, one that is much afraid of showing my own weakness, the mistakes that find themselves glaring in my music. I have a bad habit of taking down works of mine that I deem to be "amateurish"... I'm afraid of being seen as anything less than professional despite the fact that I am still learning, and I'm only 19. You deserve to see my mistakes. I wrote Protégé out of the intense desire to make music my full-time job. This past year, I've put all of my time and energy into it. It's a hard pill to swallow that, often times, an unpredictable algorithm decides whether or not you "make it." Tomorrow, I face my most difficult challenge yet as I am losing my permanent housing. Perhaps it was naïve, a little dumb, to bank so much on my dream. However, I totally refuse to give up! I've always been stubborn, and music is what makes me happy. I'm going to fight and manifest the reality I work every day for, no matter what. I want it more than anything. I need it more than anything. My time will come.