Disengaged

I'm here But I'm not inside this moment I learned the art of standing still While everything around me bleeds Nods and words without a pulse A living shape that disagrees I smile on cue, I play the part A ghost aligned with beating hearts I hear you speak, but not to me Your voice dissolves before it lands I cut the wire, I dimmed the sound Pulled my presence underground Not to vanish, not to flee Just to stop feeling everything I'm disengaged, but still awake I watch the world without the weight No love, no hate, no pull, no chain Just hollow calm and muted pain I don't belong, I don't resist I coexist with the abyss I didn't fall, I didn't break I simply disengaged Every crisis sounds the same Recycled fear, rehearsed decay You call this living, call this fire I see a system on replay I tried to care, I tried to stay But empathy became a blade So I withdrew what I could feel To keep what's left of me intact This distance isn't disbelief It's self-defense disguised as peace If I feel less, I think more clear If I step back, I still exist I'm disengaged, not unaware I see the truth, I just don't stare At every wound you want me in I won't drown just to fit your skin I don't deny, I don't escape I just refuse the baited rage I didn't die, I recalibrated I consciously disengaged If connection means collapse If compassion burns me out Then distance is the only way To keep my mind from shutting down I won't confuse my silence With surrender I feel the world Just not your noise I keep my will By killing choice If numbness is the cost of sight Then numbness is my birthright I'm disengaged, but still intact I chose restraint, not heart attack I keep my self by standing still While everything demands I feel I won't be dragged into the flame Just to prove I'm not the same I didn't fade, I didn't end I simply chose where I extend Presence is not participation I am here But I owe nothing