Trapped Within My Mind - In The Room

In The Room by Trapped Within My Mind I was always close beside you But I kept the safest parts Gave you what came without asking Held the harder things apart You would reach a little deeper I would stop where I felt sure Thought the love I meant to give you Was the love that reached for you I thought being there was showing up Thought staying meant enough Thought a body in the doorway Counted same as reaching out You were building something with me I was living in it too I thought staying was the hard part I forgot to keep choosing you I forgot to keep choosing you You would show me what was missing I would hand you something else Something easier to offer Something safer for myself Then I'd wonder at the distance Like it came from out of view I kept giving what felt loving Never asking if it reached you I thought being there was showing up Thought staying meant enough Thought a body in the doorway Counted same as reaching out You were building something with me I was living in it too I thought staying was the hard part I forgot to keep choosing you I forgot to keep choosing you There were things you said a hundred times I only heard when you went quiet Things I swore were asking too much Look different from this side And I could tell you I was trying I could tell you what I meant But intention never held you When attention wasn't spent I was there I know I was there But I know Being there was never showing up Staying wasn't proof enough Love was more than sharing hallways More than never giving up You were building something with me And I finally see it too Staying isn't what I'm scared of It's forgetting to choose you To choose you