Demons Catching Feelings

[Intro — whispered / atmospheric] I keep telling myself I'm okay Like saying it enough makes it true But somewhere underneath it all There's something I can't get through [Verse 1 — rap] Yeah, I wake up, put the mask on Same face, same day, keep the act strong Everybody asks me, “How you been?” I say “good” with a smile and grin But there's a war underneath my skin And I don't know where the hell it begins I've learned how to hide it, learned how to cope Learned how to smile while I'm hanging by a rope I keep moving, never looking back Keep telling myself that I'm on the right track But every step that I take feels wrong And the silence in my head keeps getting too loud [Pre-Chorus — melodic] And I don't know what I'm feeling I don't know what I've become I can say that I'm okay But that doesn't mean I am [Chorus — huge] 'Cause my demons catching feelings On something they know not about On the surface, I am dealing But deep down, I'm filled with doubt 'Cause my demons catching feelings On a truth I can't explain I keep smiling through the daylight While I'm drowning in the rain Yeah, I'm telling everybody That I'm better than before But my demons keep on asking What the hell I'm fighting for [Verse 2 — rap] Maybe I don't wanna talk about it Maybe I'm scared if I start, I won't stop it Maybe the truth ain't as easy as hiding Maybe the voice in my head keeps reminding Me of every mistake, every word, every night Every time I was wrong, every time I was right Every promise I made that I couldn't keep Every secret I buried too deep And I swear I don't know why they care Why they follow me everywhere Like they know something I never knew Like they're waiting for me to admit it's true So I laugh when I wanna scream Act like I'm living somebody else's dream On the outside I'm holding my ground But inside I'm six feet underground [Pre-Chorus — building] And I don't know what I'm feeling I don't know what I've become I can say that I'm okay But that doesn't mean I am [Chorus — huge] 'Cause my demons catching feelings On something they know not about On the surface, I am dealing But deep down, I'm filled with doubt 'Cause my demons catching feelings On a truth I can't explain I keep smiling through the daylight While I'm drowning in the rain Yeah, I'm telling everybody That I'm better than before But my demons keep on asking What the hell I'm fighting for [Bridge — quiet] Maybe I'm not broken Maybe I'm just tired Maybe all this pressure Is what I buried deep inside Maybe I don't need the answers Maybe I just need to breathe Maybe the demons aren't my enemies Maybe they're a part of me [Breakdown — screamed] I'M FINE! THAT'S WHAT I SAY! I'M FINE! JUST WALK AWAY! DON'T LOOK! DON'T ASK! DON'T MAKE ME TAKE THIS MASK! 'Cause if I let you see inside You might not recognize The person standing here tonight The person I've been trying to hide [Final Chorus — full band] 'Cause my demons catching feelings On something they know not about On the surface, I am dealing But deep down, I'm filled with doubt 'Cause my demons catching feelings On a truth I can't explain I keep smiling through the daylight While I'm drowning in the rain Yeah, I'm telling everybody That I'm better than before But my demons keep on asking What the hell I'm fighting for [Outro — fading] On the surface, I am dealing... Deep down, I'm filled with doubt... Maybe my demons know me Better than I know myself.