She Found Her Dad’s AA Journals After He Died… Then Everything Changed

Jordan’s story starts long before her first drink. Growing up around alcoholism, she was warned early about what it could become — but like so many, she believed she could control it. What followed was years of escalation: Drinking at work. A DUI. Pushing limits. Losing herself. But everything changed when, years after her dad passed away, she discovered something unexpected… His AA journals. Reading his words forced her to confront the reality of addiction in a way she never had before — not just his story, but her own. This episode dives into: The progression from “normal drinking” to loss of control The moments we justify — until we can’t anymore The difference between consequences and change What it actually feels like to lose yourself… and find your way back Jordan now shares her story to help others understand that recovery doesn’t look one way — but the truth behind it is always the same. 00:00 – Jordan Intro 03:39 – Dad’s Alcoholism & Finding His AA Letters 05:13 – How the Letters Changed Jordan 08:07 – Yoga as Her Recovery Program 10:00 – “Connection is the Opposite of Addiction” 11:00 – Family Letter on Alcoholism (Charles Carroll of Carrollton) 15:54 – Jordan Reads Her Dad’s AA Journals 20:54 – First Drink 22:55 – Drinking at Work in Early 20s 25:10 – Getting a DUI 28:36 – Mom’s Reaction to DUI 32:00 – Sisters’ Reaction 34:40 – Probation 38:18 – Drinking Escalates 40:55 – Drinking at Work (Again) 43:14 – Losing Yourself 47:18 – Boyfriend Leaves Because of Drinking 52:00 – Rock Bottom & Detox 53:30 – Choosing Sobriety 1:00:00 – Message for Anyone Struggling This episode contains discussions of addiction, alcohol abuse, and recovery. If you or someone you know is struggling, know that help is available and you are not alone. This content is for informational and storytelling purposes only and should not be considered medical or professional advice. Follow Jordan TikTok:   / jcloww   Instagram:   / @jcloww   Follow Spencer / The Penny Moment TikTok: @sober.spenny Instagram: @sober.spenny TikTok: @the.penny.moment Instagram: @the.penny.moment