dissonant descent / tsuina-chan lite

a lot of my family members are developing the same illnesses that i suffer from, yet they spread anti-disabled rhetoric like it's butter on bread, not knowing they are next on the government's chopping block. some even have comorbid cancer diagnoses. i thought that i would drum and bass about it. art: arusechika/konagona on piapro https://piapro.jp/t/5zms https://piapro.jp/konagona vocals: tsuina-chan ai lite (synthv is not generative ai) instrumental: ask in the comments. this one's kind of weird because i used tsuina-chan's voice for about 25% of the instruments, so the version without her vocals would probably sound really empty lyrics: oh, how surreal would it be? all double negatives on your screen that karmic debt collector won and it should hurt like a knife in the heart upon hearing end up fearing but it just burns over top of a wound ever searing i'm just weary all in all, the reaper sleeps forever (time, no time, no time, no time) when it calls, you'll have no cord to sever (fine, that's fine, that's fine, that's fine) no, i know that i'm next it's been painfully direct in the way my footsteps fail, and i feel like jennette though, it hasn't happened yet it's a murky estimate but, i'm unprepared, and i'm still so scared that you'll follow me after death oh, and it should hurt like a knife in the heart upon hearing end up fearing but it just burns over top of a wound ever searing i'm just weary all in all, the reaper sleeps forever (time, no time, no time, no time) when it calls, you'll have no cord to sever (fine, that's fine, that's fine, that's fine) but, maybe there's a way that i could finally be free if you decide to treat yourself the way you've treated me if you're pushing past your limits while everyone calls you lazy don't come crying to me, i won't say i sympathize and it should hurt like a knife in the heart upon hearing end up fearing but it just burns over top of a wound ever searing i'm just weary and it should hurt like a knife in the heart upon hearing end up fearing but it just burns over top of a wound ever searing i'm just weary all in all, the reaper sleeps forever (time, no time, no time, no time) when it calls, i'll have no cord to sever (fine, that's fine, that's fine, i'm fine) #synthv #vocaloid