Still Here, But I'm Tired

Sometimes you're still standing, still fighting, and still believing… but deep down, you're just tired. This one is for everyone fighting battles nobody sees. Still Here, But I’m Tired — PoppaFamz #StillHereButImTired #PoppaFamz #MentalHealthMatters #RealLife #NeverGiveUp Lyrics Yeah… Everybody keeps saying I'm strong. But nobody ever asks what it costs me to keep being strong. God… I'm tired. Not giving up. Just tired of carrying all this pain. I wake up every morning with a war inside my chest, Got a thousand things weighing on me, ain't had a moment's rest. Got a smile I put on for my babies when they look my way, Then I turn around and fight the thoughts I never let them hear me say. I gave my heart to people who kept tearing it apart, Now I'm trying to build a home with all these pieces of my heart. Twenty-some years of memories, a future I believed, Now I'm staring at the wreckage of the life I thought I'd keep. And the people who should know me wanna tell me who I am, While I'm fighting just to stand up, trying to be a better man. Got my name inside their mouths, got my family in their wars, I'm so tired of defending what I never asked them for. And I pray when I can't sleep, And I cry where no one sees. Lord, You know what's underneath All this strength they think is me. I'm tired… I'm so damn tired, Of putting out the flames while I'm burning up inside. I'm tired of being strong when I'm breaking every night, Of telling everybody I'm okay when that's a lie. But I ain't gone… no, I ain't through, I've got little hearts that still depend on me to pull through. If all I have is one more breath, I'll use it just to fight, I'm tired, God, I'm tired… But I'm still here tonight. You don't know what it's like to have your whole world rearranged, To be hurting in your body while your life is full of pain. Trying to fix a broken home with a pocket full of fear, Wondering how you're gonna make it when tomorrow's drawing near. I got bills that keep on coming, got a future full of doubt, Got some battles with my own mind that I don't talk about. I got memories that haunt me, got some nights I can't forget, And some people keep on pushing like I ain't been through enough yet. But I'm done explaining pain to people committed not to hear, Done confusing being silent with pretending I don't care. I can forgive without returning to the place that broke my trust, I can love the ones who hurt me without letting them destroy us. And my children see a father, not the battles that I hide, So I'll wipe away these tears and put my fear back to the side. Not because I'm made of iron, not because I never fall, But because they deserve a father who keeps answering their call I'm tired… I'm so damn tired, Of putting out the flames while I'm burning up inside. I'm tired of being strong when I'm breaking every night, Of telling everybody I'm okay when that's a lie. But I ain't gone… no, I ain't through, I've got little hearts that still depend on me to pull through. If all I have is one more breath, I'll use it just to fight, I'm tired, God, I'm tired… But I'm still here tonight. God, I don't need You to explain Why my whole world had to change. I just need a little peace And some relief from all this pain. I'm tired of being misunderstood, Tired of trying to prove I'm good. I can't control what people say, I can only choose who I become today. So take this anger, take these tears, Take the weight I've held for years. I'm laying down what I can't change… I'm still Your child beneath this pain. Maybe healing ain't a straight line, Maybe strength ain't never crying. Maybe some days getting out of bed Is the biggest victory in your life. Maybe I don't have the answers, Maybe I still have scars to mend. But my story isn't over, And this pain won't be my end. I have fallen, I have stumbled, I've been humbled by the fight. But there's still a little fire That refuses to lose its light. So if you see me getting quiet, Don't assume that I am weak. I'm just gathering my strength For the battles I don't speak. I'm tired… Lord, You know I'm tired, But there's still a little hope You haven't let expire. I may bend beneath the weight, I may break down and cry, But there's still a reason I get up and try. For my kids… for my faith… For the life I'm trying to save. I don't have to win each battle, I just have to face today. I'm tired, God, I'm tired… But my story isn't done. I've been walking through the darkness, Still believing in the Son. Everybody sees the fighter… Nobody sees the fight. But God sees every tear that I cry at night. I'm not giving up. I'm just tired. And even tired… I'm still here.