Life's Best Feeling: Love

I used to think love was the closest thing a man could get to having wings. When I loved you, the world felt lighter. I had someone to tell my dreams to, someone whose presence made even the uncertain future feel worth walking toward. I trusted you with the parts of me I rarely showed anyone, believing that if I gave you my heart honestly, you would understand what it meant to hold it. But I remember how you looked at me toward the end. I remember the contempt in your eyes, the way your warmth turned into indifference, as though the person you once loved had become someone beneath your attention. And I remember how you treated my first attempts to build something of my own. Those dreams were still small then. I was learning, making mistakes, trying to turn an idea into a life, with no guarantee that any of it would work. I didn't need you to believe I would succeed. I only wished you wouldn't make me feel foolish for trying. You were there when those dreams were barely more than a spark, and somehow, instead of protecting that little flame, you made me ashamed of how badly I wanted it to burn. Perhaps you never understood what that did to me. Perhaps I will never understand how someone can be trusted with so much love and still choose to leave behind such a cold memory. For a long time, I thought losing you was the tragedy. Now I think the tragedy was how carefully I had to rebuild my faith in myself after letting your opinion become louder than my own. I still create. I still dream. I still carry that restless feeling that there is something I am meant to make of this life. But I no longer confuse someone's presence with proof that I am worthy, and I no longer believe that loving someone means they will know how to love me back. You were not the person I thought you were, and I gave you a love you did not know how to value. I cannot change that. I can only hope that the boy who once trusted you so completely will forgive me for letting him believe that your approval was part of his future. I don't know if I will ever love that fearlessly again. I only know that, for a little while, loving you gave me wings. And I will always grieve the fact that I gave them to someone who made me feel ashamed of trying to fly. Maybe one day I will build the life I once told you about. Maybe it will be beautiful. Maybe nobody will remember how it began, or how much it hurt to keep going when the person I wanted beside me could no longer see anything worth believing in. And if I do end up leaving this world alone, I hope I will at least know that I never stopped becoming the person I was trying to be. You may have been part of my story, but you will not be the ending. #darkambient #darkambientmusic #droneambient #ambient #ambientmix #ambience #soundscapes #dronemusic #darkmusic #ambientmusic #backgroundmusic #creepymusic #ambienthorrormusic #ambientmusicforsleep #ambientmusicdark #nostalgia #chill #aesthetic #vibes #relaxingnature #calm #chillvibes #calmvibes #relaxingvibes #focusmusic #studymusic #concentrationmusic #deepfocusmusic #workmusic #deepfocus #productivitymusic #ambientstudymusic #deepworkmusic #sleepmusic #relaxingmusic #meditationmusic #sleepingmusic #deepsleepmusic #relaxing #relaxingsleepmusic #meditation #calmmusic #pianomusic #relaxation