City of Eclipses - Four

Lyrics: I still see colors dancing in the wind A fragile thread between your hands and mine We built a world that I could barely live in Before it disappeared behind the sky I remember light across the ceiling Familiar voices through a flickering screen The weight of someone stronger beside me In a world too young to understand what anything means But sunlight had a way of turning colder And gentle hands could cast a darker shade I learned that thunder didn't need a storm cloud And love could leave a child afraid Somewhere between the warmth and warning Between the laughter and the fear There's a face that time keeps stealing And a voice I almost hear HOW DO YOU MOURN A GHOST WHO ONCE HELD YOUR WHOLE WORLD? HOW DO YOU MISS A STRANGER WHO WAS EVERYTHING YOU KNEW? I'VE SPENT A LIFETIME CHASING SHADOWS OF A LIFE THAT NEVER GREW AND I CAN'T TELL IF I'M MISSING YOU OR THE MAN I MADE OF YOU I woke beneath a borrowed shelter Still running from the monsters in my sleep But something darker crossed the threshold And found the place I thought could keep me safe A broken voice against the silence Another swearing it was true And suddenly the walls were breathing With a grief I never knew I heard the strongest heart I'd ever known Break in a way I'd never heard And I ran toward the sound of sorrow Too young to understand the words HOW DO YOU MOURN A GHOST WHO ONCE HELD YOUR WHOLE WORLD? HOW DO YOU MISS A STRANGER WHO WAS EVERYTHING YOU KNEW? I'VE SPENT A LIFETIME CHASING SHADOWS OF A LIFE THAT NEVER GREW AND I CAN'T TELL IF I'M MISSING YOU OR THE MAN I MADE OF YOU Two little shadows in a doorway A thousand questions in the air And all that followed fell to silence But I can still hear her despair Did the road take away a monster? Did it steal the man you'd someday be? Would the years have made you softer? Would you have learned to love me differently? I've held your memory like broken glass Afraid to let it go Afraid that if I cut away the pain There'll be nothing left to hold I CAN'T FORGIVE THE ROAD FOR ALL THE YEARS IT STOLE! BUT I CAN'T FORGET THE DARKNESS THAT WAS LIVING IN OUR HOME! YOU LEFT ME WITH A QUESTION THAT NO GRAVE CAN ANSWER NOW! WAS THERE A BETTER MAN INSIDE YOU THAT I NEVER GOT TO KNOW?! HOW DO YOU MOURN A GHOST WHEN THE MEMORIES ARE FADING? HOW DO YOU LOVE THE HANDS THAT SOMETIMES MADE YOU AFRAID? I'VE SPENT MY LIFE IMAGINING THE YEARS THAT NEVER CAME AND EVERY VERSION OF YOU IS A STRANGER WITH YOUR NAME I DON'T NEED TO CALL YOU PERFECT TO WISH YOU HAD BEEN HERE I DON'T NEED TO HIDE THE SHADOWS TO ADMIT I MISS THE LIGHT AND I'D GIVE ANYTHING TO KNOW YOU BEYOND THAT FINAL NIGHT I still see colors dancing in the wind But I can't remember how you held the string And somewhere in the space between The man you were and who you'd be There's a child looking up Waiting for the sky to bring you back to him