No control - Depry January

NO CONTROL *[Intro — Clean / Dark Atmosphere]* I feel it crawling underneath my skin A voice inside that I can't silence Every thought becomes a war And I don't know what I'm fighting for I'm losing grip I'm losing time Something inside me Is crossing the line *[Verse 1 — Harsh Vocal]* I wake up with another storm inside Trying to control every thought in my mind I build these walls just to watch them fall The harder I hold on The less I have at all I count every failure I replay every word Searching for an answer That was never fucking there My hands are shaking My head is spinning I keep pretending That I'm still fucking winning *[Pre-Chorus — Rising Clean]* I can't stop the noise I can't silence the fear The more I try to fight it The louder it appears *[Chorus — Clean / Melodic]* I have no control Over what is breaking me I have no control Over who I'm supposed to be I'm falling faster Than I can save myself I keep reaching for the ground But there's nothing left to hold *[Verse 2 — Rap Metal / Aggressive]* Yeah— Tick-tock, pressure building in my head One more thought and I'm losing my breath I analyze everything, over and over Trying to predict every fucking disaster What if I fail? What if they leave? What if the person in the mirror Is everything I don't wanna be? I keep chasing certainty In a world that never stays Trying to control tomorrow While I'm wasting fucking today I've got a thousand voices Telling me which way to go But the more I try to listen The less I fucking know *[Pre-Chorus — Harsh → Clean]* I can't stop the noise I can't silence the fear The more I try to fight it The louder it appears *[Chorus — Clean / Bigger]* I have no control Over what is breaking me I have no control Over who I'm supposed to be I'm falling faster Than I can save myself I keep reaching for the ground But there's nothing left to hold *[Bridge — Clean / Emotional]* Maybe I don't have to know How every story ends Maybe I don't have to carry Everything on my own I've been fighting every wave Like I could command the ocean But maybe letting go Is not the same as giving up *[Build-Up — Screamed]* I CAN'T CONTROL THE PAST! I CAN'T CONTROL THE FUTURE! I CAN'T CONTROL WHAT EVERYBODY THINKS OF ME! SO WHY THE FUCK AM I STILL TRYING?! *LET IT GO!* *[Breakdown — Heavy / Gang Vocal]* NO! CONTROL! I'M DONE FIGHTING WHAT I CAN'T CHANGE! NO! CONTROL! I'LL TAKE THE CHAOS AND FIND MY WAY! LET IT! GO! *LET IT FUCKING GO!* *[Final Chorus — Clean + Harsh Layer]* I have no control And maybe that's what sets me free I have no control But I can choose who I will be I'm falling faster But I don't have to fear the ground If I can't control the storm I'll learn to breathe inside the sound I have no control Over everything around me But I still have a choice To become who I wanna be *[Outro — Clean / Melodic]* I can't control the past I can't control tomorrow But tonight I can finally let it go No control... No fear... I don't need to control the world *I just need to stop losing myself.*