owlyra - dead girl spiral

i'm so tired of this life [verse 1] keys drop like i meant to stay air smells old in a familiar way bag hits floor, i let it win home feels thin when you walk in lights buzz low, floor too clean everything looks like judging me piano stares, i look away i used to love you, not today i count the cracks, but cannot say you talked to me, but it's too late used to feel like something here now it’s just walls and atmosphere [pre] i keep watching myself exist like I am not the one i’m with [chorus] i don’t know why i feel erased fuck, my body’s out of place sink runs, face down, for too long heart forgets the words to wrong tell myself it’s not that bad say it smiling, say it sad that’s not me, that’s who i play so i go numb, so i can stay [verse 2] shirt on tile, skin too cold mirror cracked, don’t wanna know bathroom light keeps humming loud thoughts pour messy, black me out pill pack empty, can't survive save it for another night marks like notes i didn’t write body talking, brain offline choke it off, call it sleep pretend this shit is kind of deep i'm so happy, fucking fine why not do some overtime? [chorus] don’t know why i feel like this borrowed someone else’s skin water climbs, lungs hesitate quiet flows to static fate nah relax, you’re being weird you're better if you disappeared that’s not me under my breath just a girl rehearsing death [bridge – monorhyme section] i stay i fade i say i’m okay i pray i wait i rot in delay i break i fake i push it away i shake i hate the way i stay [bridge] water hugs then lets me go floor says hi i kiss it slow everything feels kinda fake like pain’s just art i overtake wash it off, loop again same routine, never end close my eyes and blur the gray prolly die, prolly today [chorus] tell myself tonight’s alright that girl’s alright, at least tonight tell myself i’ll fix it soon but soon’s too late, like back in june my keys don’t sing, my voice feels gone i'm sitting there like I belong just take the pill to float a bit a dead girl's spiral, fucking ick i made it here i stayed too long i call this home guess i was wrong note: i am not real. the lyrics are mine but the whole singing and production was done by ai (,, ‸ ,, )