Nobody knew

Lyrics: [Intro] Some children lose their home… Others lose it before they know what home means. And some grow up never knowing what it feels like when someone stays. [Verse 1] I was young, but life had crossed me off, Two empty chairs, no one asking where I'd gone. No hand on my shoulder when the nights got long, Just four cold walls and a bed that felt wrong. Strange faces, strange names, unfamiliar rules, Learned to hide my pain, never speak the truth. No one asked how I was, no one looked in my eyes, So I swallowed every tear till I forgot how to cry. Sat in class, but my mind was somewhere else, Made mistakes, had no one to guide myself. Wrong friends, wrong turns, trying to belong, Tell a child they're alone, they'll believe they don't belong. [Hook] I never wanted this life, I just wanted a home, Never learned what it feels like not to be alone. Every “stay strong” put a stone on my chest, Till I couldn't tell the difference between pain and the rest. Ask the years without love why there's a void in my soul, Ask the nights in the cold why I lost all control. I was just a little boy nobody wanted to see, Now a grown man still searching for what I'll never be. [Verse 2] First bag of weed, just to silence my head, Didn't wanna forget, just escape from the dread. Minutes of peace turned to hours in a haze, Lost a little more of me with every passing day. Alcohol to drown out the noise inside, Ignored every warning, had nowhere to hide. Then the highs got stronger, the fog grew thick, Couldn't recognise myself, trapped in the mist. Blue lights in the darkness, another night in cuffs, Every charge, every failure said I'm never enough. I wanted to scream, but the words wouldn't come, Needed someone to listen, but I thought there was none. Now the streets know my footsteps better than my name, Just a shadow in the rain, always running from the pain. Never reaching somewhere I could finally stay, Running from the past, but it followed every day. [Hook] I never wanted this life, I just wanted a home, Never learned what it feels like not to be alone. Every “stay strong” put a stone on my chest, Till I couldn't tell the difference between pain and the rest. Ask the years without love why there's a void in my soul, Ask the nights in the cold why I lost all control. I was just a little boy nobody wanted to see, Now a grown man still searching for what I'll never be. [Verse 3] Hands shaking, eyes blank, searching for that boy, Buried underneath the years, the silence and the noise. Thought that time would heal the wounds and make the memories fade, But the things we never speak of never truly go away. Grey skies above the city, tired of every fight, Too much drank, can't think straight, lost somewhere inside. Think about my parents, faces I never knew, All the unanswered questions, all the pain I went through. I never wanted riches, never wanted fame, Just a home, some warmth, someone who knew my name. I see that little boy with fear behind his eyes, Asking what he did wrong, wondering why nobody tried. He needed someone near him, someone who would stay, Someone who would hold him, tell him he's okay. I wish I could have told him what he never got to hear: “You were never the problem. You deserved to have us here.” [Bridge] Maybe I was never difficult… Maybe I was just alone. Maybe I never wanted to disappear… Maybe I just wanted somewhere I could call my home. Maybe I wasn't born broken… Maybe I was just a child who had to grow up on his own. [Final Verse] The night was cold, grey skies above the town, He was tired of every battle, tired of being knocked down. Drunk and lost in thoughts, all the buried pain returned, All the questions left unanswered, all the bridges that had burned. He never asked for much, just a place to belong, But the years kept moving forward, and the loneliness stayed strong. He thought about the child who had nobody to turn to, And the love he spent his whole life searching for but never knew. [Outro] No grand goodbye. No words to explain a life. Just a boy with a thousand unanswered questions, A child who spent his whole life searching for love. And maybe one hand would've mattered. One simple, “I see you.” One quiet, “Stay a little longer.” But nobody knew how silent it had become inside him. Some children lose their home. Others lose it before they know what home means. And some stories end before anyone hears the cries they kept inside. -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Add me on Instagram:   / koenichkrank