why you keep hitting rock bottom over & over again

does suffering automatically equal success? i believed that i had to suffer in order to be successful. and i realised that success to me meant living an interesting life. that I didn’t want to feel like my life is boring. and i felt like i had to sacrifice my own peace and stability to achieve that. that’s how i kept hitting rock bottom over and over and over again. i wanted to constantly reinvent my life to give myself the illusion that i was getting somewhere without actually making any progress at all because it was 10 steps forward and immediately after: 10 steps back. this is me making sense of it all. join along if you’re in the same boat of figuring this out too. spiritually, success, mindset, confidence, belief, suffering